Laugh For The Day.

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The Laugh.

Screenshot_1031 I haven’t had a good laugh for a long, long time, and so long I can’t even remember the last time I laughed so I prayed to God and asked Him to send me something that will really make me laugh and as always He delivered: I was watching the TV news and one of the reporters showed us these photos he’d doctored super-imposing his face on top of other people’s faces, making for funny photos, such as him at the Trump-Putin summit, him with Trump and the Queen, him horseback riding with Giselle Bundchen ,etc. it was really funny and I laughed so hard I laughed out loud, exactly the kind of thing I needed and was looking for. It never fails to amaze me how God cares so much for each and every one of us, that even the smallest,most insignificant things still matter to God if they are important to us and if we ask for them; all we have to do is ask. If it matters to us, it matters to God.

As well, the 11 YR old’s such a genius he’s memorized 35 digits of Pi (all I know is the 3.14) and he’s skipped several grades in school for years now and will be starting grade 9 (that’s highschool!) when school resumes in the fall! The pool guy was back again (he was here 4 hours) as well and seemed to have finally found the main leak: he dug a second hole underground and said that when the other pool guys either opened or closed the pool for the season when they took the “jet” out they punctured the wall and one of the lines somehow, his guess would be with a screwdriver or something trying to force it out, and so he fixed it, costing 350$ which is still way better than 950$.

So now we can run it and add the chemicals…..and hope it clears up and that we get to use it at least for the second-half of summer as we haven’t been able to so far and it’s been so HOT this month I would have been swimming every day! Today, for instance, with the humidity( feels 40 C) we’re under a severe thunderstorm warning, but hopefully at least it will cool it down. Both my mother and hubby say they won’t even be opening the pool next year if we’re still here but they always say that every year….they say it’s a waste of $$$$ just because they don’t swim and they don’t use it and it’s mainly me that does and as we all know anything for me isn’t worth it.

I wonder as well if maybe my pain might be a kidney infection or UTI as even though it started in the abdomen it’s now really bad in the lower back, both sides,and now I also noticed that my pee is really cloudy and foamy, signs of infection, and it has this really strong pungent odour that stinks like cat piss. Every now and then I still get the odd twinge shoot thru my abdomen as well but the worst now is my back.It’s always something; I don’t think I’m ever really pain-free.

Screenshot_1032 Also this because sunflowers make me happy.

The Hole.

HolePool2018 This is the big hole in the pool deck as the pool guy’s back again trying to find the leak underground in the pipes.I hope he can find it and repair it, and without it costing a fortune because we just don’t have it. My hubby’s always saying how the pool’s such an expense we should just fill it in and one of my Facebook friends said she actually did do that; when she had the pool in Oklahoma they had an underground leak as well and they weren’t able to locate it and it would cost so much $$$$ in the process trying to find it and then fix it that she just had it filled in because they wanted to sell the house and were in a hurry to get it listed. She said they broke apart the concrete and filled it all in with dirt. She didn’t remember how much it exactly cost but she said it was less than continuing on with trying to find the leak. Our pool’s really big and deep though; 20 X 40 feet and 9 feet at the deep end….that would be lots of dirt to fill it in, I’d hate to think of the cost. Why does this always happen to us though? All these repairs, expenses, setbacks, and obstacles that we just don’t have the $$$$ for and can’t afford?

My mother also said we’re NOT going to move unless it saves us $$$, by down-sizing and having less expenses at a smaller house, such as less property taxes and costs less to heat the house and such, but we won’t be if we haven’t got the $$$$ for moving expenses( realestate agent fees, legal fees, house inspector, taxes, movers, connection fees,etc) and if we don’t get more for this house than we have to pay for the next one, which by the looks of things, doesn’t look very likely as everything else is way more expensive than what we’ll get selling this one,and even if it’s the same and we just break even we still won’t have the $$$$ for the other moving expenses.

My stomach ulcer pain is also back again now and I have a splitting headache,too, and I wasn’t able to go to church yesterday either as it was 28 C with a humidex of 37 C (and hot and sunny,too, not overcast or breezy to cool it down a bit) and it was waaay too hot to walk in that; we also had an extreme heat warning and I know I would have gotten heatstroke and passed out and my hubby wasn’t back from Toronto in time to drive me and never bothered to make the effort because it’s just something for me and no one gives a shit and it’s never a priority. It’s been a week since I first got my excruciating abdomenal pain as well and every day since then I’ve been so extremely tired too I have to have a nap every afternoon and today I was almost drifting off to sleep when I was suddenly jolted awake by what felt like something landing with a thud! and bouncing off my bed, but it turned out that it was just Buddy jumping up on my bed and I startled awake and opened my eyes and saw that it was just him and I smiled, reached out for him and he licked my hand and snuggled down next to me and we both fell asleep. Too bad a person like him doesn’t exist; that would be my soul mate and would give me the same love, devotion, loyalty, companionship, bond, connection, friendship, affection, and closeness.

Wonderland.

Screenshot_1024 This entire weekend my hubby, the 15 YR old and the 17 YR old are away in Toronto, visiting the second-oldest before she moves to Vancouver next month, shopping, and going to Wonderland theme park, so it was just my mother, the 23 YR old, the 11 YR old, Buddy and I at home it I had a quiet break too with less people, less noise, less work,and less stress.No clocks, no schedule, just doing whatever, whenever. It was esp. nice with my hubby not here. They also met up with the 21 YR old and they were supposed to meet up with the 19 YR old as well and have a Girls’ Day Out except she couldn’t get the time off work and it was already hard enough for them all to arrange and day and co-ordinate all their schedules where they were all off and free on the same day and made plans and had to keep changing it so many times because someone had to work or wasn’t available.

The 11 YR old’s such an uber-genius as well he knows all kinds of things I have no idea about and he asked me to change a decimal to a binary number(and, of course, math has always been my worst subject!) and I’m like, Whaat? I don’t even know what a binary number even is…. (I thought nowadays the term binary had something to do with gender identity, although I’m not sure exactly what it means).I think that’s the worst thing about smart people is that they make dumb people like me feel even dumber.

BuddyEye Buddy’s eye is also looking much better now and still flattened down and hasn’t filled up again into another lump and now it just looks like a cut and I put a antibiotic cream on it several times a day. I worry about him like he’s one of my kids! I was wondering as well with my severe abdomenal pain(which is much better now although the odd time it flares up to remind me, generally as a sharp pain shooting thru and my back is still really bad) if maybe it was just my diverticulitis acting up? Remember a few months ago a CT scan showed I have it, which is basically inflamed sacs, or pouches, in the colon, and during flare-ups they can become infected. Maybe that’s what it was for the 5 days or so, esp. since I had diarrhrea,too….or maybe my hubby really is poisoning me like he said he was?Poisoning is esp. brutal on the intestines,liver, kidneys, and stomach.

I also noticed last night the entire under-side of my left leg where it bends under the knee and the entire under-side of my left thigh is a deep,dark bruise and I have some purple blotchy bruise-y areas on my arms and chest as well, almost as if my platelets are low causing me to bruise excessively, which is also a symptom of being poisoned,and I know rat poison destroys platelet cells, so your blood can’t clot and that’s how you die; you bleed out,so it just makes me wonder and I wouldn’t put it past him and he does hate me and want to get rid of me and he’s even said he puts poison in my diet cola and that he’s trying to kill me off for my life insurance $$$$(he says he’s just joking but that’s not a “joke” and with him you never know…)….

It was kind of suspicious the other day as well when I mentioned if I die the autopsy will show the cause and he said how oh, they won’t do one on me given my medical history; they’ll just assume that’s what it was and he seemed so confident, so sure, of this, and I told him that any suspicious or unexplained death they do perform autopsies to find out the cause… so don’t get so smug, asshole, thinking you can kill me and get away with murder because in my will revision I’ll request they do an autopsy(and mention my concerns why) and you will get caught!! Plus, I’ve also told my doctor and others my suspicions so I have witnesses,and I have evidence saved and hidden so if the police come looking they’ll find it and can test it for poison residue, so there’s that,too….Always make sure you have back up.

I was also outside at 8 am and heard the next door neighbours and it was a woman’s voice loudly yelling to either her husband or her kid:Get your f*cking ass down here right nowso I waited to hear a response, curious to see who she was talking to, and then I heard her again, this time less mad and more cheerful, There’s my little f*cker! and after awhile I heard a fairly deep male voice( so either her husband or teen son but not a little kid): It’s so early! I’m telling you right now I’m going right back to sleep! and then mumbling I couldn’t hear,and then the man/boy again, But I did help out! I mowed the lawn, remember? My guess: her teen son, calling him to get up and do some chores and he wanted to sleep in during his summer vacation. 🙂