Today is one of THOSE days; you know, where you feel like you have this dark cloud hanging over your head.(I think it might be PMS!) I just feel terribly sad and alone, more so than usual,and sick of being ugly and tired of being fat and I hate it. I always feel dumped on in life, victimized, outcast; I feel opposite of everyone else, like they’re all walking in one direction and I’m going the opposite way!My Social Phobia, lack of self-esteem, and strong conservative views don’t help, and today is one of those times I’m just praying my way thru life minute-by-minute,but Jesus is holding me up, helping me to bear my Cross of depression, anxiety,loneliness,fear,worry,despair,and self-loathing. I am not alone.He is a Man of great sorrow and affliction and He will uphold and comfort me until this dark cloud passes….May is always a bad month for us too(and I dread) as most people in our family have died in May,and something bad usually always happens in May, too, such as (in the past) our dog dying, my mother losing her job, our house fire, an enemy threatening our family,etc… no WONDER I’m feeling apprehensive and uneasy….