The man or the music?

I wonder if history will be kind to Michael Jackson; will he be remembered for his music….or for his bizareness? he had a life filled with sexual scandals, drug addiction, and financial woes, but he was, nevertheless, a brilliant and gifted artist, albeit a tortured one. He was a troubled soul, but will go down in history as one of the greatest pop artists of all time. His “Thriller” album will never be out-sold. I am hoping for the sake of his soul, however, that the sex accusations of pedophilia were merely rumours and NOT true(as we all know child molesters do NOT go to Heaven!)despite the evidence that(to me,anyway)seems to suggest otherwise(such as the huge millions$ pay-off to a victim to buy his silence and drop the charges) but I wonder how history WILL remember him most? For the man, or the music? I hope now he is at peace at long last. He lived a stressful life under the microscope,which may have even contributed to his death; stress CAN be a risk factor for heart-attacks..

Off to the Philippines?

My hubby told me he may be able to get a job transfer to the Philippines. This would be a great cultural experience for the kids! It is also said to be a Global Spiritual Centre, with a rich Catholic faith, and with strong families and faith, not to mention the tropical climate(typhoons and tropical storms aside!) I really wouldn’t MIND going over there for awhile! It’s an exciting prospect,although¬† an expensive one, just the airfare alone for all of us, but it would be a nice experience,and I have always felt “drawn” there for some reason as well; could this be why?I think it would be a nice opportunity,and they have the beautiful palm trees I love so much,and it won’t be a problem finding a Church for Mass,either! ūüôā

I am a square peg.

I am a square peg in a round hole.I have never been “like” other people,and am different, set “apart” and have a “separateness” about me. I don’t think I’m “better” than anyone else, but I AM different; I always have been. I even have somewhat of a distance and disconnection from my own family. Somehow I am always on the outside looking in. I don’t know WHY, but there has always been an “apartness” about me,and I never fit in. I am always searching for the love and happiness missing in my life,and for some reason have trouble “connecting” with other people. Perhaps it was growing up without love, feeling rejected and unwanted. I was never shown love and I guess I never really learned how to love. As a Christian I try my best but it’s like learning as I go.I can’t put my finger on it, but I have always “stood out” and been an outsider.God made everyone unique and individual.I struggle with this daily, yet prefer to be alone and on my own. I never liked group activities,and have Social Phobia. Being around other poeple makes me feel uneasy, awkward,and I am basically a “loner”.This is my Cross to Bear.I struggle thru life, and things don’t come easy for me.What is easy for anyone else is difficult for me.I have a hard time with everything and am just trying to survive, plodding thru life one day at a time and praying day by day but I am not alone; God is with me and will not forsake me.He carries me thru my darkest moments of fear, despair,loneliness,and hurt.

Friday Fill-ins

And…here we go!

1. All children alarm their parents, if only because you are forever expecting_  for them to fall and crack their heads open!____.

2. Show me a good loser and I will show you a¬†¬† White-trash who doesn’t drink!_____.

3. _the sin of gluttony  ____ is like eating an entire box of chocolate liqueurs at one time.

4. Too bad that all the people who know how to run the country are busy worshipping the environment  _____ and _  pandering to the gay agenda.____.

5. I have yet to hear a man ask for advice on how to combine    asking for directions  _____ and     to stay away from channel-surfing._____.

6. It is impossible to think of any good meal, no matter how plain or elegant, without   pasta _____ or _ spice ____ in it.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I’m looking forward to¬† writing in my diary¬† _____, tomorrow my plans include¬†¬† swimming _____ and Sunday, I want to¬† donate to the foodbank at Church._____!

Thanx to Janet and Tami.