“The grass is on the sun!”

A few years ago I yelled upstairs to the kids, “Degrassi’s on soon!” and one of the younger ones told them, “The grass is on the sun!” not heaing it quite right. It was quite funny, but “Degrassi Jr. high”, “Degrassi High” and “Degrassi the Next Generation” have been my favourite TV shows for years and I have been a faithful viewer ever since it began back in the late 80’s, saw the “School’s Out!” concluding movie in 1992(where Caitlin said the “F-Word” on TV!!) and continuing on with the follow-up series introducting new characters. Next Sunday is another “Degrassi” movie, “Degrassi goes Hollywood” which I admit sounds kind of lame; people chasing the Hollywood dream, but I will watch to see what happens to the characters,and the 9th season starts in the fall as well. Oddly, for a Canadian show, it’s good; usually Canadian shows and movies suck and they just have this “Canadian vibe” where you can just TELL and it’s so awful and low quality, but Degrassi is actually good, and follows the trials ,angst,and tribulations of teen life and school society, genuine, sensitive stories and topics, and serious issues are addressed and my kids watch it with me,too! So WE are, in fact, also the “Next Generation” of “Degrassi” fans!

Mourning the end of summer!

I can’t believe summer is almost over already! In 3 more weeks we are back to homeschooling once again,which I dread, even though it is my vocation and best for the kids(and I wouldn’t have it any other way and the evils and inadequacies of public school is not an option!) it IS very hard work, stressful and can be a struggle at times, and besides, I LOVE my summer vacation; my time off, where I can lay out in the sun,tan,and just relax and de-stress. I mourn the end of summer! We have had lots of rain this summer as well, bad storms and several tornado warnings and watches. We did alot of swimming, the kids went to various camps, and we’re going to the Ex next week,too, which is always bittersweet as it is a fun yearly tradition yet also signals the end of summer.:(

Twist and shout!!

Last night we had a tornado warning which was quickly upgraded just a minue later to a watch…we ended up with a fierce storm with torrential rain and howling wind, thunder and lightening, but that was it. We were lucky. Several places nearby got tornadoes,which flattened buildings, tossed cars into mid-air, tore off roofs, uprooted trees, and caused lots of damage.They also killed one person at a campground. Now 54 000 people are still without electricity and in this area it’s 18 000. Years ago I was near a tornado(in the next town 30 min. away) and even that was too close, but I remember the sudden pitch-black dark sky, the hail, side-ways rain, torrential rain and the trees bending down to the ground, and of course, no one can miss the “roaring freight train” sound or the sight of the actual funnel cloud itself. We had have LOTS of bad storms and tornado watches and warnings this summer but this one actually came to pass!

More stress: our 19 year old said he’s really sick: severe headache, stiff neck,and aches, I fear is meningitis, but my hubby thinks is merely university stress. He said he was going to see a doc, but I’m worried as he’s so far away and I haven’t heard from him yet, so is he laying in an ICU bed somewhere,or simply “forgot” to call? Please pray it’s nothing and he’s ok…

Friday Fill-ins.

1. When will   my “break” in life finally come?_____?

2. “The Secret”  _____ was the last good book I read or movie I saw or tv show I watched.

3. Everything has its beauty but   not in my case; just fug!_____.

4.  Couscous _____ is what I had for dinner.

5. I’d like your    good luck and happiness in life._____.

6.  Anywhere else but here  _____ is where I want to be right now.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I’m looking forward to    evading the tornado _____, tomorrow my plans include     watching a movie  _____ and Sunday, I want to     go to Mass  _____!

The “hammer has fallen”….sort of…

For those of you who have been following this story(all 3 of you, ha ha) my hubby had his biiiiggg meeting at work yesterday. It lasted a whopping 12 HOURS from 8am to 8pm and then the 2 hour drive home; he was home late, and anyway, so far so good: he hasn’t lost his job YET; he’s ok until December but is on the ” hit-list” to likely lose it then; his entire department, in fact. We needed to hear some good news for once, and we have a bit for now(afterall, at least it IS 4 more months we may NOT have had if he’d lost it now) but more of a ‘reprieve”,as it’s still precarious; he’ll still likely be out of a job at the end of the year.Not a very nice Christmas present,though,huh? But we know something will show up; it always does. He has been out of work before and God has always looked after us and provided our needs. It just means we have to trust in Him even MORE!

“Ketchup” post.

Catching up on what we’ve been doing recently…..

I saw muddy raccoon paw-prints all along the pool deck and we spotted our ‘resident” groundhog again, and  I noticed a neighbour’s Maple tree already has a few yellow leaves on it, and I am dreading back to homeschooling in 3 weeks! Another cousin also had Swine Flu, but mild, not serious like his brother had,and I had a dream an uncle collapsed and died, and 2 days later in real life found out he WAS rushed to the ER with an aneurysm, and the 6 year old thought the chips “Sweet chili heat” was “Sweet CHICKEN FEET”, and the 2 year old drew on his and the other kids’ faces with markers! It has been really hot lately as well; with humidity 40 degrees C and we’ve done alot of swimming, and found out our toilet doesn’t really leak,afterall, but rather it was just the BOYS’ bad aim, peeing on the floor!! Something bad happened to someone my mother doesn’t like,and she was GLAD, and sneered it ‘serves her right”(which I think is just cruel,hateful,and just plain mean!) but my 6year old had it right as she suggested,”We should PRAY for her!!”(I agree!) and our oldest said he’s sick and thinks it’s a cold(I hope NOT Swine Flu, as that’s how my cousin’s started off…) and complains we don’t send him enough $$$(he’s away at university) and I told him we don’t HAVE the $$$ to send; we all are suffereing here; we only buy food on sale and buy used clothing and toys,and he’s only one of the kids; there’s still others here too that need to be fed and looked after! The recession is hitting everyone hard; welcome to the club! My husband may be losing his job,too….times are tough everywhere!

…and now, a vaccine to encourage sin!

Critics say Gardasil's makers minimized the sexual transmission of HPV and provided unbalanced info. This is the vaccine to “prevent” HPV, a SEXUALLY transmitted disease that causes genital warts and at times, cervical cancer. They are pushing it on ALL girls, from age 9 years old, the same way they’ve been pushing the Hepatitis vaccines on the 12 year olds(and no, we have always refused it on moral grounds!) So, like with handing out condoms at health units and schools they are pushing a vaccine now, too, condoning, and even encouraging, sin, a false sense of protection, like saying “Here, take this and you can sleep around all you want and not worry about getting a disease!” here’s a newsflash for you: how about ABSTINENCE? How about a thing called living a clean, moral chaste life and you WON’T get a disease either?(and this way is 100% guaranteed!) by the way, did I mention they are also finding the vaccine has bad side-effects(just like contraception, which is also sinful), from strokes, immune disorders, blod clots, death, etc? It wouldn’t surprise me either if what they’re really doing is sterilizing all these girls; injecting them with something(like Depo Provera, or something) to prevent them from having kids. I’m suspicious of ANYTHING the gov’t pushes; be it a Flu shot, or whatever.Living a clean,moral life goes a LONG way, in preventing AIDS, or any sexually transmitted disease. It also goes a long way with GOD and in safeguarding  your salvation as well.Assuming(and encouraging) ALL 9 year olds are whores is disgusting(yet who else would NEED the vaccine, unless they’re high-risk?), and encouraging sin without consequences is even more disgusting.Come to think of it, I bet lots of “worldly” 9 year olds are having sex, and that’s where the problem is…..

Shave this!

I think I might shave off my eyebrows again just for the heck of it(only NOT draw them in like last time) and I even heard it’s the latest fashion rage on the runways in Paris! It’ll certainly be a unique look, very edgy and funky! I also found out another cousin had the Swine Flu as well only a mild case and not serious like his brother had. I am having a rough couple of days as well: I got tricked into installing a virus in my computer by being told it WAS infected and I had to install something to remove it(I’m not smart enough to tell the difference) and then the 18 year old left her bloody underwear laying right on the bathroom floor and gave ME mouthy,snotty attitude when I told her she’s old enough to know better and to pick it up NOW(her university room mate certainly won’t put up with her attitude either, and I’m COUNTING the days until she leaves!) and the 15 year old cruelly mimicks me, and my mother likes to torment me and set me up; she’ll hide the food in the cupboards and not tell me where it is, and even move it so I can’t find it, and then tells me the wrong place it’s at,and when SHE successfully finds it(when I couldn’t) she gets all smug and superior and acts like she’s  smarter than me and when I sighed,”So I guess that makes you so much smarter than me and I’m just the biggest dummy in the whole world?” she smirked, “Yup! That’s RIGHT!” My poor little heart feels so beaten and broken, life for me is a daily struggle and I’m barely hanging on; just trying to hold on and keep my head above water so to speak, is emotionally exhausting. If I didn’t have writing as an outlet I would be totally lost… and of course God is always by my side! 🙂

Farewell to Paul and Brad…

I confess I used to have the biggest crush on Paul McCartney ever since I was 12 years old. My friend and I just LOVED him, and ever since the 90’s I liked Brad Pitt, but now that has all changed, once I found out what was really behind the “pretty” face; what they were REALLY like as people; that Paul took drugs,and was very controlling and  abused both his wives, and became one of those irritating enviro-vegetarian,animal-rights freaks, and the same with Brad: committing adultery, shacking up, smoking marijuana and then saying if he became mayor he’d legalize gay “marriage” and BAN religion! Clearly I don’t like them as people, and they don’t have good morals,and nothing to admire or be attracted to. Alot of beautiful and famous people are like that(and often conceited ,arrogant,and nasty as well) very shallow and have poor morals. It really IS just an illusion afterall; they aren’t what they seem,and most of them aren’t what you call “good” people with strong morals.So I bid them farewell,let go of my “crushes”, and focus my attention on people who are good, upstanding, moral, godly people that actually deserve to be noticed!

I HATE it I’m stupid!!

I HATE it I’m stupid. I hate BEING stupid. I hate myself FOR being stupid. Today is another shining example: I downloaded something  and a warning popped up my computer had a “worm” and I had to click something to get rid of the virus, and I, not being smart enough to tell the difference, believed it…and ended up giving myself the virus in doing so, which my computer-savvy hubby had to painstakingly try to remove,and hates me for BEING so dumb and so easily fooled! Well, guess what, *I* hate it,too, and everything is always so hard for me and everything’s a struggle all the time; I have a hard time getting along in the world, relating to people and navigating my way thru life. What comes easy for other people is a struggle for me and what they take for granted and works out the first time(or at least the second) takes me 10-12 tries to get right. I seriously think I must have part of my brain missing; I can’t even do simple math,and have no perception,have trouble understanding things,and am easily confused and can’t tell what’s “real” or not,and get tricked.I am the unfortunate soul nothing ever works out for or goes right. Things always go wrong and being dumb makes life very difficult and it’s very frustrating even just trying to survive.It just seems things come naturally and easy for others and work out most of the time and generally go right more times than not, but for me it’s the opposite, and being dumb makes everything a challenge and an obstacle to struggle thru,and unless you have experienced it, you have no idea how hard it is and how defeating it is to have a problem with EVERYTHING all the time; if my hubby is angered having to be a spectator to it, imagine what life is like for ME having to actually LIVE with it? I am too dumb to live, I think!