“Ketchup” post.

Catching up on what we’ve been doing lately:

All of the kids have been sick(fever, cough,sore throat,runny nose,headache,muscle/body aches,fatigue, loss of appetite) which may either be just a cold or Swine Flu(symptoms are so similar) but have recovered either way. My son away at school also said he and his friends wear shirts that say “I have Swine Flu!” on them and wear them on the Metro and loudly say how they have Swine Flu and cough and sneeze and then laugh hysterically to watch people give them horrified looks and move away from them!He has also finished his 2 weeks of mid-terms. The 2 year old is his usual into trouble self; hanging the phone up off the hook, pouring juice all over the floor, running the water cooler water into a huge puddle onto the floor,poured crumbs on the dog,left the kitchen tap running, moves a chair up to the cupboard and climbs up to get what he wants,etc.. The kids said they have a video game as well where a character “goes up your butt”, and the next-door neighbours were shooting the leaves off the trees with paintball guns! I also got into an argument with someone at the youth group over Hallowe’en and  I was vindicated shortly after when the Vatican released an official statement that it is indeed “occult and anti-Christian!”I have also had more dark moments and darkness in my head, spiritual struggles, a crisis of faith and dark nights of the soul, mainly due to apostacy, even in the Church,and my husband devaluing and dismissing whatever I think .I feel so life-beaten!!

Swine Flu pandemonium!!

Here they are giving out the Swine Flu vaccines and it has become utter pandemonium! I see on the news reports there are 2500 people waiting in single  line-ups(at each location) that stretch for blocks long, waiting 3 hours or more to scramble in place to get a shot….many being turned away, running out of vaccines,shutting down the clinics, riots, police keeping watch, etc.. it is sheer madness! They have started doing high-risk cases(pregnant women, babies and people with medical issues) but others aren’t waiting their turn and it has just become insane; people hysterical and panicky and out of control wild! It’s insane!

On the other hand, many people are like us,are unsure of the vaccine and instead preferring to try and lessen risk of exposure by not venturing out into public crowds and staying home more and I have noticed now everywhere in public there is HALF the amount of people there used to be; at church, the stores, the kids’ activities, walking out in the street, etc.. people are avoiding crowds and large groups;no matter what “side” you take in this epidemic(made worse by fear mongering and scare tactics by the media., gov’t and health units; scaring people senseless and causing panic, fear and chaos!) whether you get the vaccine or not, there is certainly wide-spread fear and caution,and people are avoiding crowds!

Swine Flu pandemonium!

Here they are giving out the Swine Flu vaccines and it has become utter pandemonium! I see on the news reports there are 2500 people waiting in single  line-ups(at each location) that stretch for blocks long, waiting 3 hours or more to scramble in place to get a shot….many being turned away, running out of vaccines,shutting down the clinics, riots, police keeping watch, etc.. it is sheer madness! They have started doing high-risk cases(pregnant women, babies and people with medical issues) but others aren’t waiting their turn and it has just become insane; people hysterical and panicky and out of control wild! It’s insane!

On the other hand, many people are like us,are unsure of the vaccine and instead preferring to try and lessen risk of exposure by not venturing out into public crowds and staying home more and I have noticed now everywhere in public there is HALF the amount of people there used to be; at church, the stores, the kids’ activities, walking out in the street, etc.. people are avoiding crowds and large groups;no matter what “side” you take in this epidemic(made worse by fear mongering and scare tactics by the media., gov’t and health units; scaring people senseless and causing panic, fear and chaos!) whether you get the vaccine or not, there is certainly wide-spread fear and caution,and people are avoiding crowds!

Friday Fill-ins.

And…here we go!

1. So are we going    to catch the dreaded Swine Flu or not_____?

2. God’s plan for our lives  ___________ is what’s up ahead.

3. I love to    suntan out in the nice summer sun___________.

4. _Life is a tragic burden  __________ of some sort.

5. I walk a     fine line between depressed and despair___________.

6. _The Bible   __________ is the true elixir of life!

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I’m looking forward to    not much   _____, tomorrow my plans include    likely yard work   _____ and Sunday, I want to     go to monthly Confession_____!

Please pray for baby Stellan!

Prayers PleaseStellan is a year old today but is spending his first birthday fighting for his life in the ICU with prolonged SVT that is causing heart damage, kidney failure, low oxygen and pulses,etc. and he is on a ventilator and it’s not looking good. He went thru a similar perilous experience over the summer and came within an inch of death then and got thru it, so please pray for another miracle. This is a dire situation and the family needs all the prayers possible. Please pray he can safely come out of it once again and for his parents to be strong; this is very serious.

‘Tis Frank McCourt!

I have just finished reading 2 of author Frank McCourt’s novels. I read “Angela’s Ashes” on the plane on our trip,and just finished it’s sequel “‘Tis”. I really enjoyed them as they were fascinating memoirs of his impoverished childhood growing up in Ireland during the Depression and following years and continue on where he immigrates to New York at age 19 and finally becomes a teacher. The grinding poverty of his childhood and youth is heartbreakingly sad and the loss of 3 of his siblings in infancy,abject poverty and despair, his deadbeat drunken father who abandons his family breaks your heart, his mother’s  exploitation,etc..but the kindness of people in times of need is heart warming,and the experiences with the Catholic Church I can relate to. He has humour and wit in his memoirs, that make me laugh as well as several memorable and clever quotes. I really enjoyed reading his works and also learned he died just 3 months ago in July. It was sad though how the povery and shame and circumstances  of his upbringing damaged his adulthood and ability for happiness and security; such as drinking and having 3 marriages. It was a good read and I couldn’t put the books down!

My husband is a tool!!

My husband spent his birthday watching white-trash garbage on TV.This “tendency” of his drives me nuts, annoys and angers me to no end and makes me fed-up and bummed-out. I HATE it he likes wrestling, darts, pool, hockey,UFC,country music,and the like.If I had any hair to pull out I would have long ago. He also infuriated me yesterday hassling me about the dog, and had the sheer nerve to accuse me of NOT training it! Excuse me?? I trained it to respond to his name, to come when he’s called, to sit quietly and wait while we eat and not mooch or beg, to stand up and twirl and “dance” on his hind legs for a treat,and,for the most part, to do his ‘business” on the paper. I was just SO offended and insulted! Since when does HE care,anyway? He also makes these snide remarks how he hates the dog and it’s “useless” and every time it does somehting wrong(pees on the floor or chews the carpet) is quick to suggest to “get rid of it”,etc.. he has become very irksome and tiresome lately and I have had enough. Now when I called him a “tool” in exasperation he chirps,”Yeah! You said I’m made of steel!” I can just never win”.On top of that one of the kids drew her name in marker on the diningroom table tablecloth,and another smashed 8 eggs on the kitchen floor,one locked another in the bathroom and turned off the  light and scared her just to be mean,and the others are fighting and quarelling and driving me nuts. I feel so drained emotionally and  let’s just say he’s lucky the Church does’t consider divorce an option! I feel such darkness in my head and he irritates me to no end; he’s such a dink,and the fact I’ve spend half my LIFE with him(21 years!) seriously depresses me. 😦

To add to my dour mood,Swine Flu terrifies me to no end, and  someone at church e-mailed me and said she read my blog and that Hallowe’en is actually a CHRISTIAN holiday and should be celebrated by all Christians as such….nevermind the fact that God says to avoid everything connected to the occult,but  I also  got an encouraging comment on my blog as well by someone else saying she agrees the churches shouldn’t be encouraging it either and glad I stand up for what’s right. Now my hubby says we should leave the Church altogether since it’s heading towards apostacy anyway. I am seriously crashing and burning,and gasping for air here, grasping on by my fingernails.I need some cheering up and some light in my life…I need God even more today than ever!

Swine Flu hysteria is unnerving me!

I am getting REALLY freaked-out and scared about Swine Flu now I heard over the past 2 days 2 previously healthy kids have DIED of it; just had fever and flu symptoms and collapsed and then died the next day! Before, it had only been kids who had other underlying medical conditions that died of it, but now even HEALTHY ones are suddenly dropping dead from it,too,and this terrifies the HELL out of me and I worry about the safety of my OWN kids! Will it be like in the 1800’s where people lose all their kids to disease? It’s unreal; like a Third World country, or somehting! I am equally scared of the vaccines and don’t trust them,either; with the thimerosol(mercury) that may cause autism, and the squalene adjuvant(they also use to sterilize domestic animals) and the danger of it causing cancer, neurological disorders or paralysis, and they can also use human diploid cells from slaughtered aborted babies! This is really scary stuff,and all we can do is try our best to protect ourselves! We pray to be protected from the Swine Flu, wash our hands a lot,and from now on avoid public areas and crowds of people(limiting exposure) as much as possible; only venture out a couple of times a week shortly(2-3 hours a week) for Church and Cubs or Cadets, but not excessively; no more allowing the kids to tag along to the store, or go to camp, or anything where they would be exposed in a group setting with large numbers of people for a long period of time. This is really shaking me up and I am so afraid the kids will come down with it and die! I am terrified to death!!It’s best to stay home and avoid exposure!

“Not me!” Monday.

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I didn’t…feel jealous and hurt to hear a friend had a birthday outing with friends(without me) even though drinking and partying isn’t my thing…

I didn’t..become a nosey neighbour standing outside gawking as rescue trucks raced to the neighbour’s  across the street….

I didn’t…feel righteous anger and disappointment(and consider withdrawing our kids from the group) to hear the youth group is having a Hallowe’en party, even though as Christians we’re commanded to avoid anything connected to the occult…

I didn’t…feel tempted away on the trip to not return home…

I don’t….not miss the 2nd oldest away at university; glad the household is more peaceful without her and her snarky spoiled attitude…

I didn’t….crack-up laughing when the 2 year old came up to me and announced, “Eat me!”….

I didn’t…feel relieved I don’t seem to be able to get prego anymore when I heard of 2 people who died shortly after giving birth…

I don’t…feel increasingly fed-up with someone who’s shamelessly promoting herself, acting proud and arrogant even though she calls herself a “Christian”….

I didn’t….watch a crude inappropriate movie but laugh anyway…

I don’t…subscribe to Facebook’s “Date of the day” daily “hunk” even though I’m already married…

NOT ME!!

Neighbourhood 9-1-1

We had an adventure on our street yesterday: I was sitting out in the backyard and heard the familiar wail of fire trucks and remarked to the kids they sounded really close…and then it stopped and I said,”It sounds like it’s right in front of our house!” so we raced around to the front to see and sure enough there they were: 2 firetrucks and an ambulance at a house right across the street! Then 2 trucks with green lights on the top showed up and people went inside the house,but no hoses were attached up so I figured it wasn’t a fire,but not a false alarm either as they were still inside and didn’t quickly leave, so I figured must either be a heart-attack or carbon monoxide….as it turned out, an old man had died and they were trying to bring him “back” but failed. Poor guy.Awhile later they all left and the police arrived.We went back inside; I didn’t want to hang around and see them take the body out; that’s just too morbid! There were many curious onlookers on the street, standing around gawking, wondering what was going on and one guy even took a photo! Seeing the firetrucks brought back scary memories of when WE had OUR fire 13 years ago and barely made it out alive,and lost half the house,spending 10 weeks in a motel while it was being rebuilt. In just a matter of minutes time stood still and our lives were changed in an instant. I suffered from Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder for 9 months after as well it was so terrifying!