I can’t BELIEVE my bad luck. These things ALWAYS happen to me. I must be cursed. I am a living, breathing, walking, talking “Murphy’s Law'( “If anything can go wrong it will.”) I seriously think the universe is out to “get” me: yesterday my hubby and I went to the Indian restaurant for our combined late anniversary, my birthday and Valentine’s Day dinner but of course when we got there it was CLOSED,and it’s not closed every Tuesday, just yesterday, the time we went! Just my typical luck! Nothing EVER goes right for me! I was just soooo mad I screamed right there in the parking lot and I didn’t care who heard me,either! I had been looking forward to this for so long and I was sooo hungry too( I purposely hadn’t eaten since 10 am so I was starving so I stopped off at Burger King) It figures. Then, if that wasn’t bad enough we ran out of gas and were running on fumes and then we got stuck behind snowplows on the highway,too, and it took forever to get home!
To top it off, we also had to cancel our new Internet service provider( that we’ve only HAD for a few days!) and go back to our old one( which sucks) until we can get a new one(starting all over again) because they’d told us they’d increase our speed 3 times as fast up to 15 megabytes but then said they couldn’t afterall; that it wasn’t available here and that 5 megabytes is all we can get here; the classic “Bait and Switch” scam; false advertising, and yet another reason I hate living here in “Bumble- F*ck”(and in Canada) we don’t get ANYTHING here; this place sucks and we’re so limited and held back! Our oldest (in Calgary) says his is 10 megabytes and my hubby( who works in computers so he knows what he’s talking about) says the world average speed is 15 megabytes, and examples he gave are in Japan: 18 megabytes, South Korea: 35 megabytes, Sweden: 21 megabytes,and Latvia: 25 megabytes, so once again this shitty country is at the bottom like always , the lowest, behind, inferior, and half-assed.. I hate this place more and more each day, and every day I wake up and I’m still here I hate it even more and each day I wake up and I’m still here the more I hate my LIFE. I’ve GOT to get OUT of here. There’s nothing here for me.
The only funny thing that made me laugh was the 10 YR old said the 16 YR old has a secret weapon” in jiu-jitsu against his opponents: he farts in their faces. One bright light in an otherwise dark world. That kid can always make me laugh.
I hate my constant bad luck. I keep waiting for my “break” in life but it never comes. I just wish for once that things would work out the way they’re supposed to and that things would go right but they never do, at least not for me. I just wish I knew WHY though; am I being punished for something? Am I doing my Purgatory here on earth in my lifetime? Am I one of those “Suffering Souls?” Have I been cursed? Am I a jinx? Am I just incredibly unlucky? Am I being attacked by demons? Is it bad karma? Big things, little things, it doesn’t matter; nothing ever goes my way or works out for me and it never fails; I look forward to something and it never works out and I always end up disappointed yet I fall for it. Every time. If I didn’t I probably wouldn’t still be alive. I need some hope. I need something….