Hunk Of The Day.

NestorCarbonell Nestor Carbonell. He played “Richard” on “Lost.” Now THIS is what I’m talking about….tall, dark,and handsome! This is the kind of guy that I have always been attracted to; tan skin, dark wavy hair, dark eyes…..swoon! What a dreamboat! What a hunk! Such fine-looking sexy swarthy  specimens can be found generally in the Middle East, Italy,Greece, Spain, South America/Latin America, India, Pakistan and other places where such fine creatures are naturally of ethnic origin. Yet another good reason to travel, if only for the local “scenery!”

I Miss The 80’s.

80's I was listening to music from the 1980’s, bringing me back to my teen YRS ( I turned 20 in 1987 so I was a teen for most of the 80’s) and it brought back so many happy memories, bringing me back to a happy time in my life I wish I could go back to and I miss the 80’s. I liked it and missed it from 1982 and beyond, once the bullying(1980 and 1981) stopped and my life got better. I miss that time so much. I miss the memories, the music, the TV sitcoms, the fashions( but not ALL of them; I still can’t believe some of the things we wore back then)my friends, my Chihuahuas, my hopes and dreams I had for the future, living in the city,the fun I had, the person I was then, being happy,everything. For me it was almost a “magical” time, now sealed up in a time capsule in my memory. I miss the 70’s( when I was a kid) too, also a happy time in my life I treasure in my heart and have fond memories of. It was a great time to be a kid. Those 2 decades defined my life and were the happiest times of my life. They were not only eras but they were special and always imprinted upon my mind. Now whenever I hear a certain song, or see something from those times it brings me back and I feel like I’m a kid or a teen again and I can FEEL and relive the moment again and it makes me cry. I wish I had that life back again.

As well, the squirrels are BACK in the house again; I heard them inside the walls and in the ceiling and when the 12 YR old was outside in the back yard she saw the hole where they got thru; a vent they had chewed thru and made a hole so my hubby blocked it temporarily and once the snow melts he can properly fix it as the possibility of them gnawing away at the wiring and causing a fire really freaks the hell out of me(we already had ONE fire; we don’t need another!), the 7 and 10 YR olds have this science kit with circuit boards, circuits, wires, etc. and were doing experiments and  building things and it looked like they were making a bomb ( bomb making for homeschoolers, ha ha) and 3 of the kids can’t go to the weekly homeschooling group at the library this week because they forgot to do their lapbook project!

My hubby also said it was “Huggy-Fish’s( the 14 YR old’s fave. toy she’s had since she was 3 YRS old) birthday” only I don’t hear well and I thought he said it was “Heidi Fisher’s birthday” and I said,”WHO? Who’s Heidi Fisher?”( I really DO need hearing aids!!) and in church yesterday the priest had on this PINK robe and he said to everyone “I’m NOT wearing a pink robe….it’s ROSE!” and “The Rich Lady” was there again,too, and she inspires me, so elegant, classy,and sophisticated, and she’s like a breath of fresh air in this town full of low-life rednecks and it really needs someone like her to swank this place up!


Bully(newest) I heard on the news a 6 YR old boy’s being bullied in school for bringing a “My Little Pony” (which is pink, purple and girly) backpack to school and so his parents complained to the authorities(as they should) about it to try and get it to stop…and their “solution” was to tell HIM to stop bringing the backpack to school! As always blame the VICTIM! They did nothing to stop the actual bullying and said nothing to the bullies or their parents to try to rectify the situation! That’s the problem; bullying is NOT taken seriously; it’s a big problem, there are an increasingly number of suicides due to it and no one’s doing anything about it! All they do is talk( the schools, the gov’t, etc.) but no one ever DOES anything despite all this tough anti-bullying zero tolerance talk and in the meantime bullies keep on bullying and victims keep being tormented and living lives of Hell days in and days out until they just can’t take it anymore and eventually snap and either end up internalizing their pain( like I did) and kill themselves or turn it outward into violence and all the built up rage ends in a school shooting or something.All the pain and hurt has to go somewhere.

Bullying is NOT a rite of childhood or something that every kid should have to endure and it’s NOT ok to bully someone because of how they look, because they’re fat, ugly, stupid, handicapped, gay, poor, another race, colour, religion, or for any reason. It shouldn’t be tolerated for any reason and the bullies should be suspended from school, period. It’s NOT just words and it’s not harmless. I was bullied for YRS from when I was 13 and the emotional scars and damage are still there today, 34 YRS later. It never heals or goes away. Kids and teens and their self-esteem are so vulnerable and so easily formed and so easily hurt and damaged. Bullying is very destructive and more should be done to stop it.It’s abuse.I still remember in grade 8 when I went to the principal she called me into the office WITH the bullies and berated me in front of them that I DESERVED it(being bullied) and that it was MY fault for BEING ugly and that now it will only get worse( which it DID) because I “snitched!” Being bullied is bad enough but the adults and school officials are supposed to be the ones that help you; they should be stopping it!

As well, the 7 YR old kept jumping in his bed(like he does every night) and coming out of his room, running in the hall, into my mother’s room and down stairs, annoying everyone, and my mother wouldn’t let the other kids tell me or my hubby on him, meddling  and enabling him as always, and when he’s up in his room in bed for the night he’s supposed to STAY in his room, and the 19 YR old went to sleep early, at 7 pm so I was worried he was sick so I went in to check on him and when I felt his forehead for signs of fever I startled him awake and  he grabbed my arm and twisted it (I’m lucky he didn’t break it) as a reflex, and he was ok, I guess just depressed, and he’s more upset about losing this job than he was about the last one! I also got a big chunk of wax out of my right ear the size of a fingernail, so I think I might have finally got it all out,but it TOOK a month!

I also resent that we don’t have $$$$ so now I have to wait for HRS at a walk-in clinic(which I really hate beyond words) to get the forms signed by a doctor so the provincial health plan will pay for half the cost of my hearing aids; if we HAD the $$$$ I could just PAY the 1000$ myself and NOT have to sit there for HRS; being poor just makes *EVERYTHING* so much harder all the time, and I listened to 70’s and 80’s music from a happy time in my life I wish I could go back to, and to protest Earth HR last night we put all our lights ON, thumbing our noses at the Enviro freaks and tree huggers and their earth worshipping Green agenda and enviro indoctrination, brainwashing, propaganda, fear mongering and scare tactics!

Hearing Aids.

HearingAid I had more hearing tests done, this time listening to words and then having to repeat back what I heard( as well as pressing a button when I heard sounds and beeps) and some of them I could hardly hear at all, the ones in a low whisper, and had to really strain to hear; some I couldn’t hear at all and others I had to hazard a guess what word they were but the louder ones I had no trouble with. My results were put on a graph(like I remember from math class) and the lady showed me how my results fell below( and some frequencies way below) the normal hearing range and told me I have mild to moderate hearing loss in both ears, with the right ear worse than the left. The wax is also 90% gone out of the right ear now. She said normally people my age( 47) don’t need hearing aids but in my case I do as the hearing loss is severe enough to warrant it(so much for my hubby saying I “was imagining it” about having bad hearing but he never believes anything I say or takes anything I say seriously) and she also noticed that I talk really loud because I don’t hear well.

The hearing aids cost 1000$ for each ear and my hubby’s employee insurance at work only covers 500$ in total but they said the provincial health care plan will pay 1000$ but I need a doctor to sign the forms to get the approval…..and of course I don’t HAVE a doctor to DO it… I’ll have to haul my ass down to a walk-in clinic and spend HRS sitting there to get it. Shit. I feel really old now needing hearing aids( I selected one that’s sort of a gold/ tan colour that should blend in somewhat with my skin; they had a metallic purple I liked but it would stand out too much and batteries only last a week and a YR supply costs 80$ but they sell them there) and even my mother(who is 26 YRS older than me) doesn’t even have a hearing aid! It WILL be nice to be able to hear again( and to not have to turn the TV volume up to 50) but I feel so decrepit. I ordered it and it will be ready next week. We have to pay up front( thank God for credit cards) and then we’ll be re-imbursed from the insurance and the province so we’ll only have to end up paying 500$ which my hubby is pretty sure he has in his big tin of one and two dollar coins of emergency $$$$ he had saved up….or at least I HOPE he does…

As well, after only 3 DAYS on his new job the 19 YR old is out of work already: the diner was sold and as the new owner came in all the employees were let go so now he has to start looking for another job  all over again! Just our typical bad luck! The only good thing was he was paid all in cash so he won’t have to declare it or pay taxes, and I know everything always happens for a reason but I really don’t see it and it’s all just so disappointing, and I heard mice INSIDE the walls as well which really scares me as they could gnaw thru the wiring and cause a fire and that’s ALL we need…..ANOTHER fire! The 10 YR old and I also have this game where we have this picture of  villain Prince Hans from the movie “Frozen” (who I call “Prince Dickweed”) and I joke she loves him(and she jokes I love him) and every day we hide it in eachother’s room for the other guy to find, and I saw curling on the news(as I fast-forwarded past the sports) and I thought to myself, “ONLY a  country as STUPID as CANADA could invent something so DUMB!” I mean, it’s the most boring, lamest thing EVER, sweeping a puck thing across the ice with a broom? What kind of moron would even think of something so stupid and how it that even remotely interesting in the least and what kind of loser would even watch such a thing? Bo-ring!!