 We’re still in “limbo” about Buddy and no further ahead  in knowing anything regarding his fate; whether we get to keep him or his owner will eventually end up taking him back or not; Patti said she never even mentioned it to her son when she was up to visit him afterall at his House Warming party as he was having fun and she didn’t want to spoil his good mood as it’s a “touchy” subject for him, so we still don’t know and still have the uncertainty hanging over us. She said all the renovations have to be done by the end of this week for the bank to approve and then they’ll finish unpacking and settling in and that’s when I fear he might ask for him back. The 16 YR old asked me, “So, is he ours now, or what?” and when  a neighbour asked if we have a new dog and I told her we’ve been dog-sitting for the past 2 months she goes, “Oh, that’s dangerous! You won’t want to give him back!” and she’s right, we don’t, and even though I KNOW he belongs to his owner in my heart I feel he’s mine and it’s the greatest wish of my heart that we can keep him and they don’t seem too eager about taking him back or in any hurry and have never mentioned doing so , so there’s a good chance he’ll end up staying here and to think otherwise just breaks my heart and I can’t even think about him leaving….
If you love big you lose big.
As well. our second-oldest turned 24 yesterday and spent the day at Disneyland Tokyo with friends, and I had 2 weird dreams: one I was at a charity BBQ ribfest hosted by hot firemen in Speedos, and another I went back to our old house and we’d had 2 Christmas trees in different rooms still set up from last YR so we didn’t have to put one up this YR! My back pain is still really bad every day esp. first thing every morning when I wake up as well, it’s so bad I can hardly even move and I’d rate it around a 7/10 on the pain scale and before I get out of bed I do these exercises where I lay on my back, knees bent, and stretch and it seems to give me some relief and I wonder if maybe I have arthritis in my back now,too, like I do in my knees and neck?
All the snow is also gone now as it’s been so mild ( 9 C and going up to 15 C today) and rain so Buddy is happily back to his nice long walks( he hates the cold and snow) the 11 YR old said the reason I had 11 kids is because I “just want to have sex” and asked which of the kids were “accidents” and I told her no one was an “accident” but some of them were “surprises” as a surprise is something you didn’t know you were getting but were happy to get, and I was disappointed when I saw this singer that I’d thought was black and found out that she was actually white! She didn’t look anything like I’d imagined and was white and blonde! We’re doing Confessions to prepare for Advent( which starts next Sunday) as well and one of the priests is so weird; he asked the 13 YR old if she watches porn online and asked the 15 and 16 YR olds if they have sex and take drugs and when they said they don’t he acted like he thought they were lying and that they couldn’t *possibly* REALLY be that good! For f*ck’s sake! There is really something wrong with that guy!
