“Ketchup” Post.

KetchupOct2015 Catching up on everything:

  • The 19 YR old said her university math is “easy.” “easy?” math has NEVER been “easy” for ME, let alone at the university level. She is obviously very smart.
  •  The 8 YR old ruined the new couch by jumping on it and now the cushions at the front have come off on 2/3 of it and you can even see the springs and coils underneath.
  • I wondered if I died if anyone would even notice? Would anyone even care or miss me, other than the dog?
  • Nothing is holding me back from killing myself anymore now; before I didn’t want the 12 YR old to be devastated but she wouldn’t care anymore as now she’s just like the others and even snarled at me, “No one cares about you,anyway!” It would be so easy to just swallow a bottle of pills and lie down and go to sleep and never wake up….
  • Hippos pee backwards as it makes it easier for them to mark their territory.
  • I had a dream I poured chocolate syrup over a “hot” guy’s body and then I licked it off him! I also had another dream one of the kids put our VitaMix blender in the microwave and wrecked it.
  • One of my Facebook friends is 45 and found out she’s prego after a summer fling with a 19 YR old, but her bi-polar disorder is really bad now too and she’s been posting weird ramblings and her family’s trying to have her committed to get her help but she thinks they’re trying to kill her and she’s suicidal and her last post was telling everyone goodbye and I’m really worried about her but she’s all the way in Brazil and there’s nothing I can do….
  • My depression is so debilitating that most times pretty much all I can do is lie around and listen to 70’s and 80’s songs; music that reminds me of a happy time in my life.
  • My mother got a notice from the gas company that she didn’t pay the bill last month so now she also has to pay interest. I’m actually surprised out of all the customers that they must have that they actually keep track…
  • With the bombings in Turkey at that protest we were lucky to have gone there when we did and in fact, we went to all of those countries( incl. Israel, Tunisia, Greece, Egypt, Morocco,etc.) at just the right time,too, before all the terrorist attacks, bombings, riotings, political and civil unrest, etc.
  • The 12 YR old is so mouthy and disrespectful to me now; every time I try to join in on a conversation she’ll snap, “I wasn’t TALKING to YOU!” and whenever I state my opinion she’ll sneer, “That’s just YOUR opinion!” or “Just because YOU don’t like it doesn’t mean other people don’t!” and always has some mouthy comment to everything I say now.