The Ugly Duckling.

UglyDuckling You know that story about the Ugly Duckling that later turns into the Beautiful Swan? Well, I was the Ugly Duckling and when I was a kid and then later a teen I kept hoping that I too would morph as I grew up into the Beautiful Swan…..only I never did….I ended up STAYING the Ugly Duckling! I never DID get better looking; I just got older and fatter, but still just as ugly; no ugly-to-beauty transformation for me.I always have been,and always will be, the Ugly Duckling. I had hoped over all those YRS of being tormented that I would eventually grow “out” of my ugliness and emerge beautiful grown up and then I could really “show” the bullies that put me thru hell…but it turned out that the “joke” was on ME because I never got over that ugly awkward phase.Now I’m an old buzzard.

As well, I also cut my hair back into a Buzz-cut again; I was bored and wanted a change and this way I won’t have “Hat-Hair” during the winter and the 12 YR old won’t be able to say I have “Ugly Lesbian Hair” anymore like she did when I had the short “Pixie” cut( now she can only call me “bald”) and I missed it and now I feel like “me” again, and besides, now it’ll be harder for my family to ignore me as it’s hard to forget about someone who’s shaved their head! No one even noticed( or at least never mentioned it) except for the 12 YR old though, who said, “Why did you shave your head after waiting so long to grow it out?” Patti didn’t want me to do it though as she liked me “better” with hair,but *I* like it and that’s all that matters.You can also tell my emotional state by how I cut my hair…

My hubby also has this nasty really  red cut on his leg and I TOLD him that it looked really infected…..so after 10 days he finally goes to the ER and the doctor there said the same thing, “It looks really infected!” and he got antibiotics so once again I could tell him, “I TOLD you so!!” and I read somewhere ,”The thinner the eyebrows the more ‘severe’ the bitch” and mine are really thin,so if that’s true then they really better watch out for me! 🙂

I still haven’t heard from or seen my “herbalist” either and I’m starting to think that maybe he’s avoiding me; maybe he’s changed his mind about supplying me with “herb” for my migraines and if that’s the case I don’t know who else or where else to buy it from so I guess I’ll just have to wait until the new gov’t legalizes it and buy it at a dispensary later? I’m NOT looking forward to my headaches’ return in the meantime though! I saw on the news as well following the mass shooting in California that the Beverly Center mall is now also under a heightened security alert for the threat of a terrorist attack and that hits close to home as  *I* went to that mall all the time when I lived in L.A! I was right about how the media would “spin” the story,too: if the shooters turned out to be Muslims they’d label it a “terrorist” attack but if they weren’t it would just be called a “shooting,” and sure enough…