I went on this fantastic trip yesterday and I didn’t even leave the house! After I’d smoked a joint the music I was listening to became altered, and I noticed a David Bowie song that was playing sounded like it was playing on slow speed and my first thought was,”This song isn’t supposed to sound like that!” and that something must be wrong with my iPod and then I realized, “Oh! It’s my hearing that’s off, not the iPod!”
Then as I looked up towards the sky I saw this bright, bright white light, similar to the one pictured here(it was the closest I could get) in a circular pattern, and it was the brightest light I had ever seen yet I could look directly at it without hurting my eyes or even squinting! (I know it wasn’t the sun,either as I was also aware of the sun on the other side, and it was yellow) and it was round with a tunnel with a round black “hole” at the distant end, with the outer rim of the hole rainbow colours, like in a prism, and the “hole” felt like it kept coming closer to me(or was I going towards it? It’s all perspective) and I felt “drawn” to it, like everything in my very being wanted to jump into it onto the other side but then it stared moving farther away from me again.
I also saw this huge angel in the sky and it was an orangy-red colour and so large it took up half the sky,and it was standing beside the bright tunnel light. It cast a shadow all along the house and backyard where I was sitting outside,too and it wasn’t a usual shadow, but an orange colour shadow and I wondered if anyone else could see it as well( even though no one else was out there, I was by myself) or if it was just me and I was transfixed on it but it just hovered there for a few seconds( or was it minutes? The sequence of time was all out of whack and my perception was distorted) and I should have taken a photo of it with the iPod to see what image showed up, if any, but I didn’t even think of it, I was just so enthralled with the spiritual, mystical experience at the time and caught up in the moment.
Thru the rest of the day I continued to feel an “other-worldliness” feeling as well, felt the “veil” “thinning” between us and the Heavens and it seemed so close like I could just reach out and touch it, and every time I’d look up at the sky the colour was like how the sun would look like if you were wearing sunglasses, and I had this revelation that I’m going to die soon as well and had the impression that it’ll be due to an aneurysm, and I will find the love and happiness that I’ve always longed for,too, only in Heaven, as in Heaven you’re surrounded and enveloped by love and then happiness would naturally follow as a result. I would finally feel loved, accepted, and like I belong, incl. self-love as I will no longer be ugly, fat, stupid, or have my limitations and challenges but will be made whole and new and won’t hate myself anymore, and would no longer have the anxieties , worries, traumas, and damage that cripple me here on Earth, either. I will be at peace.
I don’t know if it was a hallucination, a NDE, a “preview” of dying, or just a groovy “trip” but whatever it was, it was intense! WOW!! It’s not something that I’ll ever forget!