Satan’s Day.

Due to it’s occult nature we don’t celebrate “Satan’s Day” (Hallowe’en). It’s not uncommon among true Christians, once they realize the true meaning of it to not celebrate it. Muslims also don’t for the same reason. In the Bible we are commanded to avoid anything to do with the occult(such as ouija boards, seances, tarot cards, mediums, fortune tellers, psychics,spells and curses, witchcraft, Satanism,horoscopes, etc.), and this most certainly incl. the most demonic day of the YR, the “holiest” day for Satanists, Wiccans,pagans, etc. and also the day the “veil” between here and the spirit world is thinnest and it’s easier for demons to be summoned to come over.(Why do you think the Catholic Church has All Saints Day just the day after on 1 November? To counter-act the evil from the day before!) It’s basically like celebrating Satan’s birthday party and lately has so much publicity ,consumerism, and popularity almost as much as Christmas! Satan is deceptive and disguises it as “harmless fun” and “everyone is doing it….” It’s banned in our home as we follow and worship God, NOT Satan and the demons, and we don’t glorify Satan, witchcraft,and the occult in any way, shape, or form….even if everyone else is doing it (whether they realize it or not.)









I can’t wait for this evil day to finally be over and then I won’t have to keep hearing about it for another YR! I’m just soooo sick of seeing it and hearing about it everywhere I go and all over the Internet.

NOT everyone celebrates it!!!

The Dream.

screen-shot-10-29-16-at-11-44-am I had a dream last night that I had all the dogs that I’ve ever had,over all those YRS, incl. the Beagle, the Samoyed, the Afghan Hound, the 2 Shih-Tzus, the Pugs, and all the Chihuahuas, and of course Buddy the Dachshund. I had them all at the same time, all together in the same place, and I was playing with them on the floor and they were jumping all over me, licking my face, and I played with them all, and fed them all, but it was only Buddy that came in bed with me at night, because out of all my dogs in my lifetime he’s my fave. and the best dog that I’ve ever had! I wonder now too if the location of the dream was supposed to be in Heaven as well, afterall, where else could I possibly see every dog that I’ve ever owned all at once? If so, that might be an indication that there are animals in Heaven afterall! I sure hope so, and although no one really knows for sure (until you actually get there) I would like to think that there is, and being a splendid place filled with beauty, happiness, and love, how could there not be pets and other animals there, right?

I had another dream as well I was in the Philippines and I was in a shop and wanted to buy a fridge magnet ( I collect them from all over the world whenever I go on a trip) only I’d forgotten my credit card, and in real life I casually mentioned how most women gleefully look forward to winter because we don’t have to shave our legs (since we wear tights and no one sees our legs) the 22 YR old was horrified and he gasped, “If they’re single!” and I told him, no, it’s a common thing among pretty well every woman!(in the Northern latitudes, anyway) I also either fell asleep or passed out for 90 minutes outside ( it was a mild 17 C!) on the porch swing in the backyard yesterday…I laid down at 2:30……and woke up at 4 pm! I was woken up at 5:45 am by a thunderstorm,too.

My hubby got this fancy framed mirror for the 15 YR old’s room at some antique-style shop as well and it was some ritzy 200$ mirror and he got it for only a dollar as the guy selling it said it was “cursed”…..holy shit……I sure hope that they’re just trying to trick me and that it’s not really; we don’t need to invite demons into the house(curses are real, too, not just some superstition), and I’m hoping and praying for a miracle for the world for the American election,too; that both Trump and Clinton will either resign or be forced to drop out and someone else (hopefully Sanders?) will become their new Prez…..

I Need This In My Life!!

screen-shot-10-29-16-at-11-58-am-001 Oh, my God I just love this so much and wish I could have it! It’s an amazing hand-made Bob Marley soft stuffed doll made by Tusy Toys in Russia. The problem is though that it costs 450$….waaaay out of my league, but isn’t it the most awesomest ( is that even a real word?) thing ever? They make the dolls of all sorts of musicians and they’re pretty big,too, but soooooo expensive. Too bad though. I need this in my life. If I had it, it would sit proudly on my bed, right on my pillows.

Add it to my Wish List.

Run Away.

screen-shot-10-28-16-at-10-45-am I wish I could just run away.

Run away from my toxic family that hates and mistreats me.

Run away from this place that I hate.

Run away from my unhappiness.

Run away  from my loneliness and despair.

Run away  from my brokenness, pain, trauma,failure, defeat, and self-loathing.

Run away from how I look and feel.

Run away  from everything that makes me me.

Run away from my life.

Run away from myself.

Just run away….

and keep running.

Vending Machines.

screen-shot-10-25-16-at-07-18-pm So along

with our home business my hubby also just bought 15 vending machines to bring in extra income that he will place  all around town in various locations and have filled with snacks of different kinds. He got the idea from a job fair/franchise kind of seminar workshop thing he went to in Toronto about business and so now he’s invested in it. We should be getting the machines delivered in a couple of weeks and it varies how often they need to be re-filled but the average is 1-2 times a week but it all depends on how well the items sell. Each item sells for 2 $ and comes in a little plastic container and depending on which items (eg. chocolate-covered almonds, M&M’s, etc.) sell and which don’t and in which locations, then we’ll know how many to re-order, and so on. I just hope that it works and we make the $$$$ that he’s hoping for, and he says if it’s successful then he can always order more vending machines and branch out, with an eventual target of 55 machines, reaching a broader area.

screen-shot-10-27-16-at-01-09-pm Remember that dream I had awhile ago how I looked like in Heaven, the “real” me, with the long wavy red hair? I found this picture and this is kind of how I looked and how my hair was, the closest thing. It also snowed yesterday as well(but melted when it hit the ground) and I know it was snow and not rain as I was out walking Buddy and I could see it was white when it hit my coat and it was heavier than rain, plus it was cold,too, 0 C! We also saved 300$ on our last  month’s hydro bill just by doing 1 load of laundry a day instead of 2 or more and by doing it at 7pm when the hydro rates are cheaper! We couldn’t believe it, what a difference it made!

The 13 YR old also purposely blared redneck country music on her iPod right when I came in the room just to enrage me and when I told her if she didn’t cut it out and turn it off I’d take her iPod away she mouthed off that she’d take my iPod and hide it, too, and when I touched her shirt to feel it because it was sooooo nice and soft she whipped it off and threw it in the laundry to get washed because I’d touched it, as if I have cooties or something, and when told her to put the garbage out (one of her assigned chores) she never did, no matter how many times I reminded her…..but when my hubby told her just once to do it she did, the first time,and the same with the 15 YR old old, when  told her to do the recycling(one of her chores) she refused and just walked away but when my hubby did she did it! They always do that,too.No one ever listens to me, obeys me, or shows me any respect, and I’m sick of it, esp. when I never even did anything to deserve it!

It was my hubby’s birthday as well (he’s 53) and the kids all made him cards but they never do for me, for my birthday (or for Mother’s Day, either, but they do for Father’s Day) using the excuse that they “don’t make cards anymore”….except that they do, just not for me,and when I asked why they make cards for him(and they fawned all over him even more than usual for his birthday,too, and mine basically goes unnoticed; I don’t even get a card!) and NOT for me the 15 YR old huffs, “Because we like him!” (the 9 YR old said he threatens to cut off their Internet if they don’t make cards for him)and I asked, “What, so you don’t like me?” and she smirked, “Yup!” and it felt like a knife in my heart. Why do they hate me so much? Why are they all so cruel to me? Then they wonder why I hate this family and want out.

My mother and hubby also went to “Arby’s” and got beef sandwiches for everyone except the 22 YR old which I think was mean and he was upset( I don’t blame him; I know what it feels like to be left out) it’s not right to buy stuff for everyone except for one person. Their excuse is he works and has a job but the real reason is simply that my mother doesn’t like him  and that’s one of the ways she asserts control, dominance, and punishes those she doesn’t like, by exclusion, and control with $$$ and my hubby is “afraid” of her and doesn’t have the “balls” to stand up to her.She also said that I “should have learned by now” and “not still f*ck up everything after almost 50 YRS” but my “problem” is that I “never listen”…basically meaning that I don’t do what she tells me to do and I’ve always had my own mind and been a “free spirit” that she can’t manipulate and control and she hates that. She’s such a bitch I can truly see why my father left her, she’s a very hard person to live with or even barely tolerate!

I want a new life.