3 am.

Screen Shot 07-17-17 at 08.32 AM I woke up again last night at 3 am. Then I just rolled over and went back to sleep again. It’s the weirdest thing: usually whenever I wake up during the night it’s around 3 am. It might be a headache woke me up, or a storm, a dream, a nightmare, having to go pee, hear a noise, or I just woke up, but it’s almost always at 3 am if I do wake up during the night, it’s the strangest thing.Last night I could have sworn I heard a(female) voice saying to me, Hello… as well!  I guess it’s a good time though to wake up if I’m going to wake up during the night anyway as it’s early enough that I still have time to get back into a good sleep and sleep well a few HRS before I have to wake up in the morning. I wonder if the 3 am time signifies anything though, and if so, what? Is that the time, perhaps, that I’m going to die, at 3 am, and I also know that some have said that the “veil” between this world and the  next is thinnest around that time; at 3 am, and that it’s a “holy” hour and a good time to pray, but either way it just seemed kind of unusual and I wondered if it might indicate something…

As well all yesterday I felt dizzy, light-headed, and like I was going to faint, and both my arms felt really limp and weak, like jelly, and I just felt so drained, weak,washed-out, and like I was fading away….no, I never had any weed in case you were wondering..…..all I could do was lay down, I felt like total shit. I was also really sweaty but that one I can’t tell if it’s because I might be sick with some virus, or due to hot-flashes of menopause, or just simply because it’s freaking hot out! Either way, it took all the energy I had just  to drag my tired, sorry ass off  from the couch to the porch swing outside. That’s enough exercise for the day, thank you. I feel like a dried up wilted plant.