Gastro I saw the gastroenterologist yesterday. His specialty is the digestive and elimination system except for the kidneys. His concern for me is my liver as blood tests have shown elevated liver enzymes over time. They took a detailed history and family history, checked my belly and said it could be my liver but Hepatitis tests in my bloodwork came back negative and I don’t drink and even though I do have a fatty liver that’s fairly common and shouldn’t be causing the elevated enzymes, abdomenal pain or jaundice and itching. He said it may also even be a plugged bile duct from my gallbladder surgery 2-3 years ago, that perhaps a gallstone got lodged in there and left behind, or maybe scar tissue is blocking it or something so he’ll book an MRI to get a closer better look at it and also wants me to have the liver enzymes checked in my blood once a month over the next 3 months to see if there’s a pattern; if they stay elevated or change, go up and down, or worsen, and then I see him again in May.

Something odd as well: when I came back from my app’t there was a message on the machine from my family doctor’s office; they’d called late in the day and when I called back  to return the message they said that the doctor wants to talk to me over the phone ASAP about my ultrasound results, the one I had a few days ago on my uterus….even though I do have an app’t already booked to come in and see him to discuss the results next week but he doesn’t want to wait that long and set up a phone call for later today….holy shit….I wonder what they found that’s so urgent it can’t wait a week? At least the good is it sounds like they found something to explain my heavy, painful periods, and irregular bleeding in-between and bad abdomenal pain, so hopefully I’ll finally get that referral to the Gyno I’ve practically been begging him for, for the past year! My mother guesses probably a tumour,(maybe it’s not actually a cyst like they thought on my ovary afterall but actually a tumour?) which may or may not be cancer and they’ll want to do a biopsy right away, possibly even remove the tumour……hey…while they’re at it, maybe they take my uterus out as well and I can just be done with this whole thing for good? No more Aunt Flow ever again,either….   🙂

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I Got Nothing.

Hippo I really can’t think of anything to post about today so here’s a hippo instead.

The only thing I have is there’s this man and woman in church I always see and I saw them in Wal-Mart so I told her I recognized them from church and I asked if they were twins because they look so much alike, almost identical in fact, but she look horrified, and recoiled,and goes, Oh, noooo! and then backed away ,slowly inching away from me. I guess they’re married but I thought they were brother and sister due to the resemblance and now I’m so embarrassed. I finally get the courage to go talk to someone and I end up saying something stupid. I always mess things up.  Well, don’t they say after years together couples do start to look alike though, so it’s not that bad…. I always feel so stupid and always say the wrong things…..such a f*ck up, and Asperger’s and social phobia really sucks!

My tattoo’s also starting to really itch now as it scabs up and heals and peels, and I had 2 “profound” (well, profound for me,anyway) thoughts as well: If there’s the Internet how come there isn’t also an Outernet,and I also realized that Saturday has the word turd in it, so it’s actually Saturday! 😀

Van Halen.

VanHalen My mother and I were relaxing in the livingroom (and I had Buddy laying down snuggled up next to me as usual) listening to music and I had Van Halen playing on the Google Home Device and 3 times she told it to turn up the volume because she couldn’t hear and I kept cheering her on, You rock!! You know good music has to be played loud! as the music thumped and made the walls pulse. It was incredible, almost a bonding moment. I would love to see Van Halen play live in concert though, oh, man, what an amazing concert that would be. That would definitely be something on my Bucket List. They were one of my most-fave.listened to bands in highschool. I clearly remember buying their albums and listening to their songs on my stereo blasting my speakers and on my Walkman…God, that makes me feel so old…. I still do like them and have always loved music and once  I met my hubby  it felt like someone turned the music off in my life. I was also dismayed when I mentioned Eric Clapton and the 14 year old goes, Who’s Eric Clapton? What? Is she serious? I can’t believe she doesn’t know who he is. I mean, that just hurts me to the core and wounds my heart. I can’t believe one of my kids doesn’t know who Eric Clapton is. Is she really one of mine?

Aunt Flow also didn’t come afterall like I thought it did; when the ultrasound probe came out of my you-know-what there was blood on it so I assumed it was Aunt Flow but nothing more came after that so I guess it was just blood  from being poked around in there from the test and now I also have really bad pain in my lower left back, either a pulled muscle or it could be my kidney based on the location, plus my liver ,too; I feel sharp stabbing pain on the left side under my ribs.  I’m falling apart. The girls are also trying to convince my hubby to get them a Kitchen Aid mixer for their baking as there’s one on sale now, and they like the silver but I’ve always liked the light pink one.

The light tan brick house( that I’ve always liked and imagined renting) next door to D’s old house is also now up for sale….and for 300 000$ and it’s only 3 bedrooms and even though it is a nice house so I wonder how much we’d get for ours then with our 7 bedrooms, 3 floors, large yard, and the inground pool? She just moved 5 streets over as well so she’s still in the area and hasn’t moved too far away. It’s also mild out 5 C so I was finally able to take Buddy out for a nice long walk once again and he loved it and was sniffing everything along the way and peeing on everything(there was also an unfortunate incident last night on my carpet) and with my sore back/kidney he’s extra attentive of me as well and is staying close-by me even more than usual and is more protective and guarding than usual, and he’s pawing at me and whines, like he can sense I’m hurt and he’s not letting me too far out of his sight. He’s so sweet. I love him so much. He really is my best friend.I wonder too with kidney and liver failure if maybe my hubby really is poisoning me? What else would explain it, esp. when there doesn’t seem to ever be any medical cause for it????????????????