Weed.

weed I saw on the news that the average Canadian spends 25 $ a week on weed. I usually spend 100$ a month so that would end up being the same.It does wonders for my migraines, helps greatly with my anxiety, helps me to relax and chill out,and relieves whatever pain I might be having, incl. cramps, back or abdomenal pain, other headaches, etc. It also has the nice side-effect of helping me escape temporarily, floating off to another dimension where there’s only serenity, peace, beauty, and love. It’s a blessing from God. My family hates that I use it but they hate everything I like and do anyway and always use it as an excuse to insult and degrade me and to put me down so I might as well just do what’s best for me and makes me happy because they’ll criticize and demean it anyway. Speaking of family, one of the kids turned 20 yesterday,too, he’s now no longer a teenager!

I still wonder as well what’s actually causing my heavy painful periods, abnormal bleeding and abdomenal pain even though the ultrasound just showed the 2cm  cyst on my ovary and simple ovarian cysts aren’t supposed to have any symptoms or cause bleeding or pain, but nothing else showed up, nothing to explain it, like cancer or anything, so what’s causing it? Then the thought just came into my head Just because they don’t see it doesn’t mean it’s not there…. I wonder what it is though, there has to be something causing it, some reason, and Aunt Flow is already 9 days late and it still hasn’t come so far….I keep hoping it’s done for good but I know better; it’ll still show up eventually, only really bad going so long…..ugh…I just hope with all my MRI’s, CT scans and ultrasounds they’ll eventually find something…or maybe my hubby really is poisoning me afterall? That would certainly cause, and explain, my liver and kidney failure as well as the pain…also the mysterious seizures…

I keep seeing all over the InterNet how Kylie Jenner had a baby and even the 14 and 16 YR olds keep talking about it and I’m over here like who gives a shit? I can’t even tell the difference between her and Kendall, nor do I care to, and the Kardashians are nothing more than glorified porn stars and I don’t know why they keep making stupid people famous. She probably doesn’t even know who the father is,anyway. I can’t for the life of me see how people can be so interested in them, care so much about them and their lives and what they’re doing and wearing, or who they’re sleeping with, or where they went out to dinner or which club they were seen at….I mean, really? Who the hell cares? I feel the exact same way about the Super Bowl; it was all over the news and I couldn’t care less; I didn’t even know who was playing and I don’t care; there are so many other important things going on in the world, such as wars, terrorism, hate, racism, refugee crisis, poverty, crime, etc. who cares who wins some stupid football game?