Why?

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My entire life I’ve felt, been treated, and been made to feel like I’m worthless, like I’m nothing, like I must be this terrible, horrible, awful person that must be being punished for something  having suffered a life of unhappiness, lack and longing for love and acceptance, and a life of rejection, pain, loneliness, misunderstanding, betrayal, bad luck, misfortune, trauma, failure, struggles, bullying, abuse,victimization, isolation, blame, ostracization, ridicule,  difficulty fitting in and making friends, feeling unwanted, unloved, and unwelcome, even in my own life and in my own family, so then I ask myself:

Why?

Why did God even create me in the first place?

Who was I created to be?

What was I put here to do?

Why do I even exist?

What is my purpose?

What is God’s plan for my life?

What is my mission?

Why am I here?

What do I contribute to society?

Why am I alive?

What is the point, the reason, for my existance?

What can God use me for?

What good am I?

What value does God see in me?

What is all my suffering and unhappy life for? What purpose does it serve?

Why?