Open letter to my son.

August,2008:

Dear Son:

In just 2 more weeks you will soon leave home,and leave town, for university. This is a big step,and a big change, both for you and for us, the rest of the family. I am proud of you and the achievement you have made; the maturity, the 4.0 GPA, the ability, and the fact you are grown up now; a man, in fact.

I see you leaving and moving away with mixed emotions; both with fear and worry ,and with pride. I am worried with you being so far from home for 4 years; going to a place where you don’t know anyone and where the crime rate is high.Universities are also very worldly and filled with immorality and ungodly thinking. Campus life is rampant with sinful influences such as partying, sex, drinking and drugs, and the atheist socialistic beliefs taught by many professors,and I have read where they are described as cesspools of debauchery and immorality,  socialist propaganda,and permissiveness.This scares me; I worry about your faith and your soul; that you will be lured away and sucked into the world; stop attending Mass and lose your faith and your soul; that you will give in to the sinful world.I do care about your education(why else do you think we homeschool?) but I care more for your soul.To me that is the most important duty of a parent; to raise a godly family.

I think it is important to attain a good education and be able to have a good job; one that you love, enjoy,are good at ,and can provide well for a future family, and academics are important, but safeguarding your soul is still what matters most and what most concerns me. We are raising you for Heaven, not Harvard. I am happy you are maturing and doing well in your education,and excited for what the future holds for you, but at the same time I am scared and anxiousand worried; it’s hard for me to let you go, so far away where I can’t watch over you and keep you safe. I still pray for you many times a day, and now hand it completely over to God; leaving you and your salvation and safety(both physically and spiritually) in His Hands, but it’s hard as a mother to let go; you are still my little boy.

Be smart and be safe.Be aware of your surroundings and don’t go out anywhere alone or in the dark.Don’t accept rides form people who have been drinking.Don’t make friends with the wrong kind of people who will lead you to sin and turn you away form your faith and the values you were raised with.Seek out like-minded righteous friends and “good” girls.Don’t get caught up in a bad crowd.Remember that one bad decision, one wrong choice, can affect the rest of your life. Don’t get fooled by persuasive, sleazy girls, or the lure of being “cool” or fititng in.Stick with what you know is true and right and never give up on your faith or in God.I pray God watches over you and keeps you safe, but also guides you along the right path; you can be both educated and maintain morality and faith at the same time.You don’t have to sacrifice one for the other.

it is hard to see you go; I will miss you and it will feel strange with you no longer here; no longer at home, or a part of our family dynamics.It will be strange to see an empty seat in the pew at Church, without you there, or an empty chair at the dinner table, or in the van.I know you must make your own way now, but please understand how hard it is as a parent to let go.One day, when you have kids of your own, you will understand completely.It’s NOT that I don’t trust you, or that I think you’re “stupid”, but I do know what it’s like out there,and how hard it can be for a Christian to function in a world that reviles and ostracizes you and everything you believe in.It’s not easy to stand apart and to not go along with what everyone else is doing.you either end up an outcast(as I did) or you give in to the peer pressure and end up like they are.

I wish you well, I wish you success,and I wish you don’t forget how you were raised and what we taught you about right and wrong.Be careful and smart. I know you will do well, but please do realize there are alot of bad things out there and be careful not to allow yourself to be devoured by them or to be lost to the world. Keep your values and faith close,and keep God closer.Don’t push Him away or forget about Him. Don’t abandon Church; it will keep you grounded and connected.

I will see you off very soon,and I send you off with love and best wishes.A piece of my heart will always follow you and be there with you. I am worried and concerned, but only because I love you and care about you. I know you will laugh and scoff and say I’m just being sappy, but so be it. I just wanted you to know.You are loved and I only want what’s best for you.

Love Mama.

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