He Sent Him.


When I prayed for someone to love me God sent me Buddy, and when He sent him:

He sent someone to love me unconditionally.

He sent me a best friend.

He sent me a great listener.

He sent me the perfect companion.

He sent someone who will never “out-grow” cuddling.

He sent me a reason to get up every morning.

He brought light, joy,and love into my life.

He sent someone to love me when no one else would.

He sent me a friend that is loyal and will never hurt or betray me.

He gave me someone to dote on.

He gave me someone that needed me.

He gave me someone who loves me just as I am and doesn’t care what I look like, how much I weigh,how smart I am,how much money I have, what I’ve achieved, or that I’m crazy.

He sent me an example of pure selfless love.

He ended my loneliness and longing for love and friendship.

He gave life meaning again.

He gives me a reason to keep going each day.

He sent me my soulmate, only in animal form.

He sent someone who “gets” me.

He sent me a friend that will never wake up one day and suddenly decide he doesn’t like me anymore.

He sent someone to keep me company and someone to talk to.

He sent a friend to comfort me.

He sent someone that would return my love and not reject it.

He sent someone to make me smile and laugh.

He sent someone who misses me when I leave and is happy to see me when I return.

He sent me someone who loves me more than they love themselves.

He sent someone to love.

He sent LOVE.

Thank you, God.

The Baby.

Screen Shot 05-09-16 at 07.57 AM My friend in Brazil was due to have her second baby by cesarian on the 9th…..but she had it a day earlier…..on Mother’s Day!!!

Screen Shot 05-11-16 at 07.52 PM Let the c-section begin….. My friend is shown here with her support team, her daughter and son-in law.


Screen Shot 05-09-16 at 07.57 AM 001…..and here she is! 6 pounds 6 oz.

Screen Shot 05-09-16 at 07.59 AM The oldest holding the youngest. There are 27 YRS  between them! She has a baby of her own,too!(and she’s a doctor!)

Screen Shot 05-09-16 at 07.58 AM 001 Isn’t she just precious? A baby is a gift and blessing from God, and this one is a miracle since her mother is 46 YRS old and she arrived healthy and the pregnancy and birth were free of any complications.

Screen Shot 05-09-16 at 06.44 PM I almost forgot how small they are! This brings back many fond memories but I DON’T miss those sleepless nights or the painful cracked nipples! Strange, too: now my friend’s Facebook page has mysteriously been deactivated so I hope nothing bad has happened to her, that she(or the baby!) hasn’t died or something; that there weren’t complications following the birth, or that the authorities didn’t seize her baby(due to her bi-polar or something) and she committed suicide….I’m worried…I hope such good news isn’t followed by something bad….

Speaking of Facebook, someone was concerned enough about me that they anonymously referred me to a suicide crisis and I wasn’t able to log-in to my account until I accessed the site and it means that someone actually cares and for that I am grateful.The thing with depression and bi-polar is that it’s a life-long battle and a daily struggle and some days are better than others; some days better, some days worse, it’s like an up and down roller coaster. One day at a time…

Lost And Found.

LostAndFound I was thinking the other day about all the losses in my life compared to the blessings in my life because I was really trying hard to count my blessings and was hoping that they outweighed the losses but they didn’t. I’ve sadly had far more losses than I have blessings and more things go wrong than right, more struggles than gains, more losses than “wins”, more pain than joy, more misery than happiness, more bad than good, more negative than positive, more hardship than ease, more worry than calm, more grief than celebration, more hurt than healing, more disappointment than excitement, more failure than success, more rejection than acceptance, more abuse than kindness, etc.

More lost than found.

As well, at least if the 18 and 20 YR olds are able to find jobs soon it will bring some extra income into the family to help pay bills as we struggle financially, esp. once my hubby loses his job next month, and I have so much anxiety and worry lately I bite my nails even more than usual but I’m trying hard to let it go and surrender it all to God, giving all the worry to Him even though it’s really hard as our future is so uncertain and our financial situation is getting so dire, and I’m excited to be growing my hair out into a new style and even if I end up not liking it for some reason I can still always just shave it off again, and the 11 YR old thought bin Laden was in Aladdin,too! No words.

Poor Buddy was so cold on his walk(even though it wasn’t too bad, – 5 C) as well that he was limping on the way back and could hardly even walk his feet were so frozen ( it would be like us walking out on the snow and ice barefoot) so I picked him up and carried him the rest of the way home, and he’s so smart and good,too, whenever he finds food laying around( on the floor, carpet, etc.) he’ll pick it up in his mouth and bring it over to me first, and drop it at my feet and look up at me for approval, asking me if it’s ok to eat or not and if not I’ll take it away and if I say it’s ok only then does he go ahead and eat it! What a smart dog!