I saw THIS on the sidewalk this morning, and it wasn’t alone; it had friends! An orange maple leaf….it’s changed colour, it’s dead….it’s…..almost fall! Summer’s almost over!!! My heart just sank and I let out a sad sorrowful sigh of resignation at the thought . I just wanted to scream. I’m not ready yet. I’m just not ready. I refuse. I’m not ready for summer to end and I refuse to allow it to be fall already. It’s too soon. It’s not time yet. I’m not ready for summer to be over. I won’t give in. I just won’t.
The kids also pulled yet another prank on me: my hubby told me that he thought we’d caught something overnight in the rat trap we had set out so I went over to look, even though I had doubts as it wasn’t making a racket or moving around , and I found…. a fake rubber rat! The kids had put it in there as a joke. Ha,ha, very funny. Actually, it’s funnier than you think: when I was around 12 I did a similar prank on my mother: I glued hair onto a squeaky rubber rat and hid it somewhere in the dark and it freaked her out. Where do my kids think they get their pranking genes from? 😀 Speaking of which, both the 17 YR old and I heard Buddy let out a loud yelp, as if something may have bitten him, or maybe he stepped on something or got poked by something, but we both did hear it, so I know that I wasn’t hallucinating.At least not this time.
The plumber had to come as well as something was leaking under the sink and where it connects to the dishwasher. I never even knew the dishwasher was connected to the sink….I know…where do you think it gets the water from?…. I know….I know…. I’m dumb…..I just never thought about it…. it turned out to be just a simple loose clamp or something that needed to be tightened and I would have thought my hubby could have done that himself( shit, even I probably could have myself and I’m the least technical and least mechanical person on Earth!) but he said he didn’t have the right tool for it.
My mother commented too about my love for clawfoot tubs, Maybe we’ll find a place(another house if we move) that has a clawfoot tub! so sometimes she does consider moving but not too often as realistically we just can’t afford it and we wouldn’t be likely to sell this house,either as houses in order to be “staged”, shown and sold for a good price have to always be so pristine, so clean, so perfect, and we’re just so, not! We’re messy, sloppy disorganized pigs with mess, junk, clutter, and crap all over the place and we could never clean it up to those ridiculously unrealistic expectations( I mean, we have a large family! When you have kids you have clutter, crap and mess!) we’re the total opposite and even no matter how hard we clean it will still never pass inspection!
I had a dream as well I heard a voice speak to me, It breaks easily for such a big heart. talking about me, and when I questioned how I have a big heart, esp. with my family always saying what a horrible, awful person I am, it replied because of how deeply I feel for other people, how I can empathize and care so much,even for complete strangers,such as those on my Prayer List, carrying other people’s pain and sorrow, bearing their burdens as my own,feeling other people’s pain and having such profound sympathy, grief and loss as if it was my own self, and praying for them; as it showes great love.
Scroat ‘N Tote! This has got to be one of the funniest things I’ve ever seen! It’s a backpack that’s… a hairy ball sack! Oh, my God, this is just the funniest thing ever! I almost died laughing when I saw this. I have so got to get this! I need this in my life. This is just so funny! So perfect for my twisted childish sense of humour. Who says you have to grow up? You’re only as young as you feel.
When I opened up the shower curtains to have my bath in the morning I was greeted by this standing there in the corner of the tub! Now, normally, people might be freaked out and think something along the lines of WTF? but in this house things like this are just a normal every day occurrence and to be expected. I was just like, Oh, ok, someone must be hanging their mask up to dry in the tub…. so I just moved it out of the way before filling the tub with water for my bath. Just a usual day at our house .I’ve seen all kinds of crazy shit in my life and nothing surprises me anymore. It turned out it was the 23 YR old up to his usual pranks again, trying to scare people; he had this mask on a styrofoam wig-head with a garbage bag on top of it standing up on a stick in a bucket, and my mother said she was only slightly taken aback, because remember, in this house you have to expect anything, we’ve seen everything, and nothing surprises us, and she basically shrugged, Oh, ok, whatever….. but it really freaked out the 15 YR old good who saw it in the dark during the night and just shrieked wildly! 😀
The funny thing was,too, that just a few minutes before that as I was getting ready for my bath my hubby said he noticed that his styrofoam head( that he puts his Cosplay costumes masks or heads on) was missing and asked me if I knew where his head was and I said I hadn’t seen it but that maybe when the kids cleaned up they just threw it out, like how they(and he) always do; they just throw out other people’s stuff and don’t bother checking or care what it is or who it belongs to only usually it’s mine or my mother’s stuff, and maybe this time it happened to something he cares about; that they cleaned and it got thrown out…but then when I saw the mask and it felt hard underneath it I figured that must be where the missing head was and I yelled downstairs to him, I think I might have just found your head! and the 15 YR old heard this from her room and thought, Whaaat? His head? Like I said, just another typical day at our house.
As well, I’d had weed and I stumbled and cut my baby toe on a big mirror that my hubby left sticking out in the hallway and it made a big cut all the way right down the middle of the toe on the top, like a dividing line and it was really bleeding too and for the longest time I thought( in my distorted thinking state) that I had cut it in half, all the way thru, leaving it basically in two halves, like forked, and then I really started to panic. My first instinct was to hide, and then I thought, Shit, there’s no way I’m going to be able to hide this….. and I imagined myself bleeding out and pictured where I best wanted it to occur and where I’d rather die so I applied pressure to it using toilet paper and went outside in the backyard on the porch swing and prepared to die, only I didn’t and the bleeding eventually stopped and in time I came to realize it wasn’t really cut in half afterall.It was really freaky though.
I can feel a really big storm coming as well. It’s been building up and trying all week. I can just feel a change, a shift, in the atmosphere, and it feels like something really big is going to happen, once it finally hits. Maybe that’s also why I’ve had this headache for the past week; the pressure’s dropping low, and it was eerily quiet outside today,too, no bird sounds at all; it’s as if they can sense something’s coming and they all left for shelter, and I saw one flock of birds quickly scatter and fly away in a hurry like they were fleeing something.It’s like a harbinger of some sort…. Shit, I wonder if we’ll even have a tornado or something?
I also found a dead vole in our grass and at first I thought it was a mouse but closer inspection I could tell it was a vole by the different size and look of the body, tail, snout,and claws, my cousins back home in Europe are still trying to adjust to the time change and jet-lag and one said even though she slept for 11 HRS she’s still tired, and it’s nice with my hubby’s new job as well he works later with this one too, later into the evening and often even into the night or overnight and often on weekends too so I hardly see him much at all and it’s really nice and gives me a break from his condescending remarks, emotional abuse, and overall general always putting me down and treating me like shit, and I like not seeing him and when he’s not around; it’s much less stressful for me.
These are just so hilariously funny that I laughed so hard I actually snorted my drink out of my nose I laughed so hard. One of the funniest things I think I’ve seen in awhile. For some reason I just found them the funniest thing ever.