Fiona Update.

Screen Shot 07-28-17 at 12.26 PM Remember Fiona the baby hippo born premature at the Cincinatti Zoo(I don’t know if I spelled that right; I’m never sure how to spell Cincinatti; that’s a hard one; how many “n’s” or “t’s” are in that exactly?) back in January at only 29 pounds, when she should have been around 100 pounds and they didn’t know if she would even live? Well, here we are now, 6 months later, and I’m happy to update you that Fiona is doing very well! She has gained so much weight that she is now over 400 pounds, healthy, strong, caught up weight-wise,and is going to make it! Yay, Fiona! You go, girl!! Isn’t she such a beauty though? Just so precious. I have been following her story ever since, following her on Facebook and even praying for her…..yes, I even pray for animals,too…..anyone got a problem with that? God loves all His creatures, and it says in the Bible that not even one sparrow falls to the ground without His knowing.

Fiona is still mainly being bottle fed milk(and she goes thru something crazy like 40 litres a day!) at this stage as hippos aren’t normally weaned until 8 months although she does have some fruits and veggies slowly being introduced into her diet, like how you would with a human baby. She has also been reintroduced under supervision to her biological hippo parents ( she had been hand-raised by zoo caregivers since her premature birth as she needed intensive round-the-clock, one-on-one care,and there was also the fear that her own mother might have rejected her for being a “runt”) and they have integrated well and swim around and frolic together in the community pool, with her mother Bibi acting protectively towards her which is also a good sign. I just love a good story with a happy ending.

So Fiona gained close to 400 pounds over 6 months and I checked my weight and I’ve lost 7 more pounds, now for a total of 49 pounds over 5 months, from the end of February to the end of July, and the best thing is I’m not even trying to lose weight; I’m not even dieting! I couldn’t lose this much weight even if I tried, even on diets I’ve never been able to lose this much, so I don’t question why……I just enjoy it! I call it my Stress Diet. All my “jiggly” parts are either shrunken down much smaller now or have disappeared, incl. flatter stomach, hardly any “bingo wings”,no double-chin, less flabby bits, rolls, “love handles”, “saddle bags”, etc… but the sad thing is though that I’ve also lost my big buffalo butt and I sort of liked my big ass and now it’s sort of flat and looks like it deflated…. maybe that’s why it also hurts alot more now whenever I sit for too long; I haven’t got all the padding there I used to!

I also discovered that looking at sunflowers is even more fascinating after you’ve had weed, and it was really hot( 34 C humidex) but after I’ve had weed for some reason I don’t “feel” the heat as much and am not as “sensitive” to it, so maybe my body temperature cools down or something, making me more “heat resistant”, but it’s the strangest thing, and then after a few hours once it wore off I was back to hot and sweaty again! I guess that’s why it’s so popular in Jamaica and other hot tropical places,too, so you’re not bothered as much by the heat! 🙂

I also got an e-mail from the medical marijuana supplier informing me of a new product and it sounds awesome: cannabis oil chewy gummies! You know, like those vitamins! The form I take it now is an oil taken with a dropper but this sounds like so much fun, like candy for potheads! My mother said kids would think it’s gummie bears and eat them but I’m sure that they have the child-proof lids on the bottle just like my cannabis oil does…duuuhhh….I think that would go without saying since it’s a drug and would be safe-guarded like any other medication…I also think the 14 YR old’s anti-depressant might be starting to work already (they said it takes 2 weeks but I noticed mine starting in just a few days, and my theory is the more severe the depression the sooner you notice the change) and I can just sense something different in her. She seems to have this light, this spark, that wasn’t there before. I mean it used to be there when she was her old self, before the depression and eating disorder took hold of her, but I haven’t seen it in the past 2-3 years…..I think the darkness just might be starting to clear…..oh, I sure hope so….

20 Pounds.

Screen Shot 04-01-17 at 09.56 AM I’ve noticed when I get out of the bath that I look and feel thinner, like there’s less of me, less flab, less jiggles and rolls, flatter stomach,smaller boobs, narrower hips…..just less so I suspected I might have lost some weight so I weighed myself on the scale, something I haven’t done in awhile as with the 13 YR old and her eating disorder we were told to hide the scale where she won’t have easy access to it as she was obsessively checking her weight several times a week. I did and I was surprised and shocked ( but happy!) to see  I’ve lost 20 pounds!  I needed to lose weight and can certainly use it but I was surprised as I haven’t even been dieting! I am now a skinny hippo!

I figure it must be my stress diet  as I’ve been under so much emotional stress, anxiety, and worry lately about the 13 YR old that I haven’t got much appetite lately and it’s been hard for me to eat and I have to force myself to eat and often find I skip meals and only end up with 2 meals a day, but also a combination as with my diuretic I would have lost about 5 pounds, plus about a month or so ago I stopped one of my anti-depressents as it had caused me to gain so much weight, like over 35 pounds, (don’t worry, I’m still taking  the other one) so maybe now I’m off it the weight is coming back off? It might also explain why I’ve been feeling so yucky lately; rapid weight loss, and I find it kind of ironic as well:I’m helping the 13 YR old recover from her eating disorder ( which also gives me purpose and my life meaning, helping her, and shows that she does still need me,too) and now I’m  the one losing weight!

I notice as well the 13 YR old eats much better when her sisters sit down and eat with her instead of with just my hubby or I (or, as the kids call us, The Oldies)  as she has a special bond with them and they’ve always been close and I got insight  what may have been the “trigger” for her eating disorder and self-harm starting 2 YRS ago: when the 20 YR old left for university! She was really close to that sister,too, and maybe when she moved out she took it really hard,and maybe she’s feeling  abandoned with her gone and in the fall the 17 YR old will also be off to university and in a couple more YRS so will the soon-to-be 16 YR old…..and then all her sisters will be gone and she’ll be stuck here all alone with just The Oldies and her little brother. Maybe she just feels all alone with everyone growing up and moving out and leaving her behind? Maybe she’s only always identified herself as part of a sibling group and  feels vulnerable on her own without her own identity and separate life? Just a thought….

The 13 YR old was also playing her new Zelda game as well and her character kept getting killed by an enemy that appears to be unbeatable and I told her everyone has a weakness, even the strongest enemy, you just have to find it and hit it. My biggest weakness is my kids, if they’re threatened, in danger, or of anything happened to them, yet when my family is endangered it also empowers me,too, as the fierce protective mother bear comes out, who will stop at nothing to protect her kids so my weakness actually makes me stronger. I also had my weed on pizza day and it worked out really well since weed enhances flavour and taste so pizza tasted even better than it normally does, and it made it into a whole new experience, and the 10 YR old loves pizza enough as it is; he was honestly even making moaning sex noises of pleasure eating his! It sounded pornographic!