The Loaner.

screen-shot-10-31-16-at-09-02-am This is our loaner car while our van is in the shop for repair. It even has heated seats and steering wheel! Oooh, how swank! It’s a different model than ours, but still has 7 seats like ours, and it oddly has a Quebec license plate! The kids don’t like it and think it’s “ugly” because it’s white(?????) but I think it looks nice,and it looks new,too. Ours won’t be ready until the 11th as the damage is extensive. The part didn’t arrive until yesterday and it’s been at least a couple of weeks since the accident so now it can finally get fixed at long last. I’m just glad that we have a car in the meantime; can you imagine going that long without one?

As well, yesterday the oldest and the 18 YR old in Edmonton sent me smart-alecky e-mails on “Satan’s Day” with the message: HAPPY HALLOWEEN! MAY SATAN’S DARKNESS BLESS YOU AND GUIDE YOU ON THIS HOLY DAY. to get me all riled up ,and when I was walking Buddy a neighbour also wished me a “Happy Hallowe’en!” so I just told her, “We don’t celebrate that!” Ugh.  I’m just so glad that’s over for another YR! I also had a dream last night I was supposed to move back to my old Toronto house( again) and kept waiting,and waiting, and waiting,and days passed, and it turned out my mother had made an offer but the current owners never responded to it yet….I wonder if it’s symbolic of me in real life praying to God every night to die? I ask Him to take my life as I’m just waiting  to die…..yet nothing happens…it’s like I make an “offer” and He doesn’t reply…and so I wait…

I also had an argument with my friend F ( who I have known since we were 12 and he’s now an accountant) on Facebook: he was mad at one of his FB friends who posted they immigrated here but regret it due to the too-high taxes and he told them if they don’t like it to go back where they came from( sounding like the rhetoric from a racist redneck Canadian even though he’s an immigrant himself; he moved here from China with his family when he was a kid!) and I agreed with his other friend; taxes here are way too high(we are one of the most highest taxed countries in the world) and it’s not uncommon for immigrants to move here and then become disillusioned and regret it once they arrive and find out that it’s not what they’d expected, thought it was, or were led to believe(I know someone who hated it and went back after only a few months, and another who stayed but hates the racism she faces); it’s not the wonderful place it makes itself out to be and thinks it is, and portrays itself out to be to prospective immigrants,with the high taxes, unaffordable housing and living costs, police abuses, treatment of Native people, blatant racism , prevalent anti-immigration attitudes, Fascist Nanny-State gov’t. and policies, etc. and many new immigrants regret their decision and want to go back but they have no $$$$ to as they spent it all to come  here so they’re just stuck…..

….and then he rips into me saying, “Canada’s not good enough for you?”(actually, no, it’s not, and I was thinking more along the lines of Europe, Australia, New Zealand, or the Caribbean) and “If you don’t like it, then move” and I said I wish I could but I can’t afford to move,and he says it’s due to “poor $$$$ management” and NOT due to taxes or the country…..uh, excuse me? It’s NOT poor $$$ management(we don’t even have $$$ to manage!) when mortgage or rent takes 50% of people’s income,monthly  hydro bills are 600$, and income tax takes 40%; no one can afford to live! I half-expected him to un-friend me, even though it’s childish to un-friend someone just because you disagree with them, but he did un-friend a mutual friend of ours over a disagreement last YR.but so far he hasn’t….sheesh….some people…and you’d think he’d be more understanding to other immigrants,too!

Chink Shoes.

screen-shot-09-25-16-at-07-05-pm-001 These are my new black flat

Chinese shoes that I got at the “Ex.” They are cotton on top and rubber-soles at the bottom.Can you believe that I got this fine footwear for only 7.99$?  They are the perfect fall shoes to wear now the weather is cooler and too cold for bare feet and sandals and where you’d need socks, but still not quite cold enough for the sheepskin-lined Ugg boots. Not only do they match with everything, they are nostalgic for me as well as I used to have a pair just like it when I was a kid so it brings back happy memories,too.

When I was 12 I had a pair, and my mother called them my “Chink Shoes.” (I also had “Jesus Sandals”, “Jellyfish Shoes”,etc. but that’s another story) I’ll never forget that one day I had 2 of my Chinese friends over at my house and the 3 of us were standing in the hallway and my mother was in the kitchen, with the closed door in-between us, and I was rummaging around in the shoes, looking for something to wear, and she loudly calls out to me thru the door, “Why don’t you wear your ‘Chink Shoes?'” I was just mortified and so embarrassed and my friends heard it,alright, and their jaws just dropped, their mouths hanging open, agape with pure shock, eyes wide open, not believing what they’d just heard.I just wanted to disappear. I can’t remember what happened after that but I was horrified and felt so badly, and it’s an incident that I’ll never forget, and every time I see shoes like this, it reminds me of that embarrassing encounter, and “Why don’t you wear your ‘Chink Shoes?'” keeps playing over and over in my head, like in an endless loop.

screen-shot-09-27-16-at-07-13-pm The 15 YR old also made these delish pumpkin spice cookies. She made 2 plates and they all went in no time. I love everything pumpkin; pie, muffins, cookies, loaf, Dairy Queen “Blizzards”, bread, etc. I just don’t like when it’s carved out into an occult symbol for “Satan’s Day.” The van’s also in the shop for a major repair; it was in all day yesterday  but they had to order the part so now it’s in all day today too to have it installed. We can kiss even  more $$$$$ goodbye. It was something to do with the steering.

The 17 YR old’s friend’s also drove all the way up from Toronto to visit her and was here late so he stayed overnight and slept on the couch and just like her he’s taking a YR off before he goes to university as well. He wants to be a pilot. After working at his job for the past 2 YRS the 21 YR old’s also hurt his back with all the heavy lifting his job requires and said he’s going to be looking for another job and in the meantime hopefully they can put him on “modified” work.


Happy Birthday Bob Marley!

BMBday(newest) Today is Bob Marley’s birthday. He would have been 71 YRS old, 4 YRS younger than my mother, except that he died young, at just 36. Poor Bob. He lives on, however, thru his music, so he’s eternal. He’s a legend and will never be forgotten. He did alot in his short life and has left us with so many wonderful songs. He was a great talent and was taken much too soon.

BMBirthday Happy Birthday,Bob ‘ Mon!

As well, we had the van in for repairs yet *AGAIN*; it was in the shop for 2 days and had  something called a “strut” replaced( the only “Strut” I know is the Lenny Kravitz CD) and my hubby refused to tell me how much it cost; he just said, “Alot!!” which made me *really* nervous and scared because I know it’s more than we can afford! We have to get the security system re-done too as it’s not compatable with the new “Majic Jack” phone he had put in, so all these expenses that we just don’t have the $$$$ for! There’s also a dead squirrel beside our front door with some fur missing( does it have mange, perhaps?) and it looks so weird and gross!

The 12 YR old also informed me that she just realized that there are twice as many nipples in the world as people since everyone has 2 nipples, and the 21 YR old made me grovel and beg for a piece of his pizza, the 8 YR old was chosen to be a tester for a new addition of the “Minecraft” game he plays, and I was in the livingroom and had the TV on and my hubby walks in and just changes the channel on me because HE wanted to watch something! Typical of how he thinks what HE wants comes first and is more important and how he just disregards me and how I don’t matter. He’s such an asshole.


Yeast Infection!

Itchy I have a raging yeast infection and the itching is driving me up the wall! It’s also all swollen and stings but the itch is THE WORST! (Ladies, can you sympathize with me?) I get them all the time and so luckily I had a back-up Canesten pill and topical cream on hand for just such an emergency. I HATE yeast infections and nothing is worse than a maddening itch! I would even rather have something hurt than itch! I also think the next door neighbour might have had her baby,too, as she doesn’t look pregnant anymore but it’s  strange as I’ve never seen the baby or seen them WITH a baby and they don’t have a baby car seat in their car, so I wonder if maybe it’s still at the hospital or maybe it even died or something? I hope not though, that’s just too sad to even think about…

I’m also a member of the Angus Reid Panel that fills out surveys(I think surveys are fun….I know, I’m weird) and one question was if I like the Toronto Blue Jays baseball team or if I dislike them but I checked “neither like or dislike” because I couldn’t care less, and the 21 YR old got a new computer, a really fast one, and it cost him 1200$ , as compared to my piece of shit that only cost 200$ but he’s working and can afford it and he needs the super fast speed for all the online games he plays.

My hubby took the van in to get the snow tires put on for winter as well and during the inspection they also found that the brakes, battery,headlights,and windshield wipers were “shot” too and all needed to be replaced, costing us even MORE $$$$ that we don’t have, hadn’t counted on,and can’t afford…..oh, shit….it’s always something….so now we sink even more into debt…we can never get “ahead”….