The Bath Bomb.

screen-shot-02-09-17-at-10-41-am Look what I found……and ordered!????  Charmed Aroma , where I got my candle that had the pretty ring in it from, now also has bath bombs! They have rings in them as well, and only 17.99$, cheaper than the candles. I got the peach/mango one and I can’t wait until it comes, and after tax and shipping it ends up being 30$ and I know you must be thinking, ” 30$? that’s an expensive bath bomb, especially for something you just use once !” but it’s actually really the ring that you’re paying for. Luckily  with $$$$ I had saved in a coin jar I have enough $$$ for it. I’m sure the ring will be very pretty and the bath will be luxurious.

We already placed one of our vending machines as well, at a comic book store, but it probably also helps that we know the owner ( and he goes to our Church, and was a referral for my passport) so now we have to find new homes for the 14 others, and did you know that “vending” comes from the French word vendre which means “to sell”? Speaking of sell, the 22 YR old said that his GF in California goes to this posh grocery store that’s soooo high-class that they even have their own personal shoppers that follow along beside you and put stuff in and out of your buggy and on and off of the shelves for you and then load it to be scanned at check-out and pack it and carry it out to your car…..holy shit!….when I lived in California we never had that; our grocery stores there had armed security guards and made you check your bags when you entered the store! It reminded me of prison!

My hubby was also scolding the 9 YR old for throwing the TV remote and breaking it in a fit of rage when it didn’t work and I was trying to explain to him how it happens to everyone and when I said, ” Haven’t you ever gotten really frustrated at something  that you just get so mad you throw something and go, “you stupid thing!” and then he smirks and looks at me and snickered, “When have I ever tried to throw you?“, implying that I’m the stupid thing, so in retort I told him, ” You can’t, you’re too effeminite to, you’re not macho enough to be able to!” and then he gave his usual reply, “I’m  already past that! On to a new topic  now!” to try to deflect it away from him once the tables are turned, so to speak.

I also heard this heart-warming story of a woman who didn’t get married until she was 60 years old and they stayed together  22 YRS until she died at age 82, proving that it’s  never too late to find love. Never too late to start over. Never too late to  be happy. It gives me hope for my life. God knows me and He sees me. He hears me and He feels my prayers and my love. He has a plan for me and my life. He wants me to be happy and to be loved. He made us to be loved. He desires what’s best for us but I have become so damaged I no longer see my self-worth,and and I don’t see what anyone would ever see in me, and only disgusting   creeps would ever be interested in me, but I know that, deep in my heart, no matter what, God loves me and He wants me to be happy. He made me to have joy..


The Vending Machines.

screen-shot-02-08-17-at-06-36-pm-001 The vending machines and snacks to go in them that my hubby had ordered a few months ago for our new home business have finally arrived! They came by this big transport truck, and here are all the boxes, stacked up high in our rec-room, waiting to be assembled. Yes, assembly required. Totally we have 15 vending machines and each one holds over 80 individual containers of various snacks, that sell for 2 $ each with part of the $$$$ going to charity that helps terminally ill kids get a wish, Make A Wish Foundation,the same one that the now 19 YR old got when he had leukemia when he was 7, so we were more than happy to partner with them.

screen-shot-02-09-17-at-03-57-pm-001 Here is one of the machines in the process of being assembled. It took an hour to complete. One down…..just 14 more left to go. We enlisted the kids’ help, mostly to take inventory and to fill the machines with snacks. Once they’re all ready we then have to scout for locations that will agree to allow us to place the vending machines in their businesses, places such as the YMCA, stores, where the kids have their activities, the legion, Wal-Mart, and other public, high-traffic areas that have lots of customers.I think the medical marijuana place would do well too, with all the stoners having the munchies, but my hubby refuses saying he “can’t stand the smell” in there and he’d have to go in 1-2 times a week to re-fill the machines, but I bet they’d sell really well there…

screen-shot-02-09-17-at-04-39-pm Here is one of the vending machines when it’s fully assembled and stocked.It stands about 5 feet high. This one has such goodies in it such as M&M’s, peanut M&M’s, yogurt-covered raisins, wine gums, trail mix, chocolate-covered raisins, mixed nuts, Reese’s pieces, etc. I put my 2$ coin in and got a peanut M&M’s, which is one of my faves. The 17 YR old also said we should place one in her room so that when her friends come over they can buy snacks, and there’s an order form online as well where you can order more stuff too so I went and ordered my ultimate fave: chocolate covered almonds, and Lindt chocolate and even Jelly Belly jellybeans,too! I would have chosen BBQ peanuts as well but they weren’t an option. Oh,well. I bet on the days when I have my weed that I’ll probably be one of our best customers!

Vending Machines.

screen-shot-10-25-16-at-07-18-pm So along

with our home business my hubby also just bought 15 vending machines to bring in extra income that he will place  all around town in various locations and have filled with snacks of different kinds. He got the idea from a job fair/franchise kind of seminar workshop thing he went to in Toronto about business and so now he’s invested in it. We should be getting the machines delivered in a couple of weeks and it varies how often they need to be re-filled but the average is 1-2 times a week but it all depends on how well the items sell. Each item sells for 2 $ and comes in a little plastic container and depending on which items (eg. chocolate-covered almonds, M&M’s, etc.) sell and which don’t and in which locations, then we’ll know how many to re-order, and so on. I just hope that it works and we make the $$$$ that he’s hoping for, and he says if it’s successful then he can always order more vending machines and branch out, with an eventual target of 55 machines, reaching a broader area.

screen-shot-10-27-16-at-01-09-pm Remember that dream I had awhile ago how I looked like in Heaven, the “real” me, with the long wavy red hair? I found this picture and this is kind of how I looked and how my hair was, the closest thing. It also snowed yesterday as well(but melted when it hit the ground) and I know it was snow and not rain as I was out walking Buddy and I could see it was white when it hit my coat and it was heavier than rain, plus it was cold,too, 0 C! We also saved 300$ on our last  month’s hydro bill just by doing 1 load of laundry a day instead of 2 or more and by doing it at 7pm when the hydro rates are cheaper! We couldn’t believe it, what a difference it made!

The 13 YR old also purposely blared redneck country music on her iPod right when I came in the room just to enrage me and when I told her if she didn’t cut it out and turn it off I’d take her iPod away she mouthed off that she’d take my iPod and hide it, too, and when I touched her shirt to feel it because it was sooooo nice and soft she whipped it off and threw it in the laundry to get washed because I’d touched it, as if I have cooties or something, and when told her to put the garbage out (one of her assigned chores) she never did, no matter how many times I reminded her…..but when my hubby told her just once to do it she did, the first time,and the same with the 15 YR old old, when  told her to do the recycling(one of her chores) she refused and just walked away but when my hubby did she did it! They always do that,too.No one ever listens to me, obeys me, or shows me any respect, and I’m sick of it, esp. when I never even did anything to deserve it!

It was my hubby’s birthday as well (he’s 53) and the kids all made him cards but they never do for me, for my birthday (or for Mother’s Day, either, but they do for Father’s Day) using the excuse that they “don’t make cards anymore”….except that they do, just not for me,and when I asked why they make cards for him(and they fawned all over him even more than usual for his birthday,too, and mine basically goes unnoticed; I don’t even get a card!) and NOT for me the 15 YR old huffs, “Because we like him!” (the 9 YR old said he threatens to cut off their Internet if they don’t make cards for him)and I asked, “What, so you don’t like me?” and she smirked, “Yup!” and it felt like a knife in my heart. Why do they hate me so much? Why are they all so cruel to me? Then they wonder why I hate this family and want out.

My mother and hubby also went to “Arby’s” and got beef sandwiches for everyone except the 22 YR old which I think was mean and he was upset( I don’t blame him; I know what it feels like to be left out) it’s not right to buy stuff for everyone except for one person. Their excuse is he works and has a job but the real reason is simply that my mother doesn’t like him  and that’s one of the ways she asserts control, dominance, and punishes those she doesn’t like, by exclusion, and control with $$$ and my hubby is “afraid” of her and doesn’t have the “balls” to stand up to her.She also said that I “should have learned by now” and “not still f*ck up everything after almost 50 YRS” but my “problem” is that I “never listen”…basically meaning that I don’t do what she tells me to do and I’ve always had my own mind and been a “free spirit” that she can’t manipulate and control and she hates that. She’s such a bitch I can truly see why my father left her, she’s a very hard person to live with or even barely tolerate!

I want a new life.