A Nice Day.

Screenshot_565 Yesterday was a really nice day. Well, not in the morning, when we had really heavy rain but then around 11 am it all cleared up and the sun came up and it was nice and sunny and warm. It had been cool, windy and rainy for the past few days, dull, yucky fall days, but yesterday was nice and it was warm: 19 C! Of course during the night it then dropped down to 2 C and we had frost and today the high’s only supposed to be 12 C but I enjoyed it when I could and spent as much time outside as I can because I know my outdoors days are numbered.

The girls also went to a Ladies’ Day thing in town at the stores where women get free stuff and discounts and stuff from the vendors and the 23 YR old(who’s a dude) went with them too and decided to try and get the free stuff as well by telling them that he “self-identifies” as a woman and if they refuse he’ll cry “discrimination”. He was originally going to dress in drag too for more effect but decided against it. It actually worked,too, surprisingly; he got free wine, cheese, and other things,and one girl even praised him for being so “brave” for coming “out” as a girl!  😀  He’s shameless and there’s nothing he won’t do for free stuff! I like free stuff,too, but I have some standards and some dignity though.

Screenshot_568 I also saw this on Facebook and I really needed to see it today, so I re-posted it on my profile in case someone else needs to see it too. It’s “funny” how God always seems to have a way of working things out and answering prayer just when you need it and how He works thru other people as well. My friend A’s ( in Ottawa) Chihuahua had her eye removed recently due to inherited glaucoma and yesterday she just had the other eye removed as well so now she’s totally blind, the poor little thing, and she’s still young too, like 3 years old or something like that, but she was already pretty well blind from the glaucoma anyway but it’s still sad but fortunately dogs seem to have a way of adapting well. I also noticed Buddy has a bit of swelling on the top of his right eye; the lump had always been at the bottom before, so maybe the fluid first starts to build up there and then moves downward for his cyst or whatever it is, so just in case I massaged and “milked” it, like you would with a blocked tear duct, to try and drain it, so hopefully it will prevent another big lump from forming again.

Levi.

Screen Shot 10-23-17 at 04.43 PM Two houses down from us there’s a 4 year old boy named Levi. He’s just the cutest, most joyful, happy, cheerful little kid you’ll ever meet. He’s always happy, smiling and laughing and so full of life, so full of joy,and every time I walk by walking Buddy and he’s playing in his yard or walking to the school bus with his sister he always cheerfully greets me with a smile and a warm hello and a Have a good day! and it just warms my heart. He’s such a sweet kid and I wish he could stay like this forever and never lose his joy, his innocence, his cheer, his happiness, his love of life. I wish I could somehow bottle his innocence and his enthusiasm and wish that he never loses his childlike innocence and peace but sadly I know in time that he will. Once the world gets to him and he grows up and meets more people and sees how the world really works and that it’s not really a safe place and not everyone is nice or can be trusted he will become jaded and damaged, just like the rest of us.

Sadly as he gets older he will lose his joy, his innocence, his zest for life, his wonder, his optimism, his smile, his sunny disposition, his cheerfulness, his excitement, his joy of being alive, his trust, his feeling of security, his carefree days, etc… because in time he will soon learn that people will deceive him, they will use him, they will lie to him, they will betray him, they will reject him, they will hurt him, they will cheat him, they will harm him, they will rob him, etc.. and he will be jaded and broken and his childhood innocence, joy, wonder,and cheer will be gone,and I just think that’s the saddest thing ever. Too bad he can’t stay like this forever. Too bad we all couldn’t. I wish I could go back to the way I was then,too. I used to be happy and unjaded once,too.

As well, my Facebook friend with cancer died yesterday so that’s now 4 Facebook friends of mine that have died; 3 of those from cancer and the other from a heart-attack, and all were in their 50’s except for one who was in her 70’s.,and I think yesterday might also have been my last day to sit outside as it has been really mild lately, like 20 C which is really nice for the end of October but from today onward it’s cooling down, like to 12 C or even cooler, plus rain, but I was lucky to be able to get out and enjoy as long as I did but I’m still sad it’s come to an end.Now I’m going to feel like a prisoner cooped up inside all the time and winter here is long,too, like 5 months!!.

We also couldn’t find the rest of the pumpkin cheesecake(only 2 slices had been eaten) and we were looking for it for breakfast and my mother accused the 23 YR old of eating it all,which it turned out he did, and then she tried to use that to “justify” the Arby’s sandwich thing (where she wouldn’t give any to him even though she did to everyone else, they got 2 each, so I gave him one of mine because I felt badly for him) and sneered to me, Don’t you regret giving him your Arby’s burger now? and I replied, No; it was still the right thing to do; it’s not right to leave someone out. She really is a piece of work. My God, that woman really gets on my nerves!

Charbroiled.

SuntanChicken Now that it’s finally warm and sunny out and the temps are in the double-digits I have officially started my suntan season! I’m out there in the backyard every day (unless it rains of course!) decked out in my suntan gear(luckily our yard is secluded and neighbours can’t see in!) laying stretched out on my towel listening to music on my iPod getting my tan! Buddy and I spend ALL DAY outside on top of that; we just love outdoors and we’d live outside if we could( no, I don’t mean being homeless!)With my suntan I look and feel like a charbroiled roasted chicken!

MeSunburned2 But of course now I’m all sunburned( for the first few exposures until I build my base tan) and now I’m all red like a lobster; my face, arms, legs, and back….radiating heat, and stinging sore….ouch! I also had another of those dreams again that I die( this time I was electrocuted again,too) only I wasn’t sure if I WAS dead or not until I found others couldn’t see me and I was able to go right thru them and I was able to flatten myself out and do backflips and soar in the air and at that point I figured, “Yeah, I must be dead, afterall!”I wondered to myself what my family would think when they found out I’d died,too, but then figured they probably be glad.

The 21 YR old also said his friend at work got fired because he’s in jail: he got arrested for selling drugs and even though he shouldn’t be selling drugs I still sort of feel sorry for any poor bastard that gets arrested as jail can’t be “fun”, and when the 18 YR old was self-harming again last night I wanted to take him back to the hospital again,too, but my hubby refused; he’s not taking it seriously enough and he’s tired of it and just seems like he’s given up on him and he said that he’s going to do what he wants( referring to the suicide attempts) and that there’s nothing  that we can do about it,anyway, but it’s so hard living like this, never knowing WHAT he’s going to do *next* or when the next suicide attempt may be, and it would be esp. tragic that he survived leukemia as a kid only to die by suicide later….what a waste…

My hubby’s going to Toronto for work again next week as well so I can go in with him and visit my BFF and I left her 2 messages informing her and asking her if she’s free (luckily it happens to be on her day off!) for me to visit but I still haven’t heard back…..and my crazy head then starts thinking these crazy ideas  that she really doesn’t want me to come up and see her only she doesn’t want to SAY so and hurt my feelings so instead she just doesn’t call back,and I know rationally it’s probably all just in my head and she’s probably just busy but to a person like me the OCD thoughts and anxieties have a mind of their own and just take over choking out all reason……..